Hmmz . Woke up early, heart to heart talk with mummy, dye my hair black, sing song, play com, smoke , smoke and smoke . Lols . Hmmmz , wasn't feeling well these few days . went to 418 and meet the rest . hmmmz. quite many people today (: talk to yonghui for the whole afternoon . Lols . At evening me and khalid went to meet bi and zoey , play pool , Bi lost!! our bet!! HAHAHAHAS . But I not so bad de la . HAHAHAS !! (inside joke) . after that, we went to Mac . eat, slacked , home to rest (: Weeeets~ after that send Baby go take cabby, went home and almost sleep . Hahaha . since Baby ask me dont sleep den i dont sleep lo . hmmmz . Bi ar, u very long never been so sweet leh . Was happy today (:

Individuals diagnosed with DID demonstrate a variety of symptoms with wide fluctuations across time; functioning can vary from severe impairment in daily functioning to normal or high abilities. Symptoms can include:[1]

multiple mannerisms, attitudes and beliefs that are not similar to each other
headaches and other body pains
distortion or loss of subjective time
depersonalization
amnesia
depression
derealization
flashbacks of abuse/trauma
unexplainable phobias
sudden anger without a justified cause
lack of intimacy and personal connections
frequent panic/anxiety attacks
auditory hallucinations of the personalities inside their mind
Patients may experience an extremely broad array of other symptoms that resemble epilepsy, schizophrenia, anxiety disorders, mood disorders, post traumatic stress disorder, personality disorders, and eating disorders.[1]


Jialat . I think I got split personality . almost all symptoms I have le . walao . i am a bian tai!! 精神分裂症.
Siao liao....... I swear .

Was at teddies . Talk . sort things out .
almost fainted . awwww . not drunk, really almost fainted .

sorry everything, to everybody including bi .
It really take many lies to cover just a lie .
And the worst thing was being kept in the dark .
Sorry everyone!!

Time to turn in .
wish i was dreaming but its real .
headache and fainting soon ):

Hope i wont get down with H1N1 ):

take care people, i'm seriously sorry for everything .
Forgive me if i did anything that makes anyone unhappy .

Yes! i am who I am . dun regret in wadever u said and u've done .
I've think think think recently .
i'll return everything u want . i'll give u back .
DONT TAKE ME FOR GRANTED! OR U WILL REGRET!

THATS WHAT I SAY!!

Baby:
Actually,i don't really care what happened or how you treat me.
Cause i can't go on without you,IDC what others say.
All i ever wanted was just being able to have you by my side.
You felt guilty for hurting me and all,i don't mind baby.
Violence?Nvm,we can violence everyday i don't mind.
You can't let go of me ,cause i haven't.And i never will.
You said before wanna bring me go manymany place.
I never take that as a promise cause you always tu me,
say that promises are meant to be broken.
But i really hope we can.You say let go and go,
but have you spare a thought for me,i really cannot.
I'm not gonna be like all your ex's,crying here and there.
Cause,i know you wouldn't like to see girls cry infront of you.
Few days before we broke up,it was still so happy.
You're like telling me you're loving me more & more.
I'm like telling you I'm loving you more & more.
Why,within less than an hour everything's gone,ended.
I really don't want things to end up like that bebe.
Why can't you give yourself a chance,and give me one more chance.
I know we broke up and patched up lots up time,but so???
Break already patch,means we still in love with each other and
patch cause we can't let go.Couples that don't quarrel are not couples.
You cannot leave me alone,you know i feel so lost without you with me??
You know anot be?hais.I know that day we both drank,and words that
came out from our mouth wasn't what we wanted to say but my temper sucks,
so does yours.And we both know.We can't quarrel in person,if not havoc already.
Not only quarrel using mouth,hands and legs will come out too.
旧的不去,新的不来. You want like that??nevermind.Forget about me and lets
get to know each other once again and i can be your new want.I don't mind.
These 3 days,we don't really contact.See each other is just like strangers to me.
Its really hurts me a lot.Why have we become like that i really don't understand.
But whatever,i will wait for you to come back to me.Cause you are the only one,
that can make me happy.Without you,what's the point?I don't know.
I really love you a lot.Idoubtyouknowthattoo.

Around of applase . seems like someone forgets everything
Bi, sometime i really hope u'll go through ur every post from the start wif me till now .
I wish u can change back to the past .
Now everything is in the opposite way .
You cannot be so heartless .
you are still my lil princess my lil angel .

You! yes you! where ur man's pride ? stop being shameless and keep msging my gf . tyvn .
stop harassing our r/s can?
Get your own gf instead of wanting to steal or snatch from others . Get ur own !
Why lonely cause me and her lasted? Envy? also want that kind of r/s too? ownself find la .
why? waited so long for "her", but "she" duwan? good choice .
I lost to you once . once . remember only that one and only time .
I curse and swear!
Lols . I know u have been coming to see wad i might be posting and seeing how is me and her r/s . we quarrelled cause of u and u are happy . stop telling people wad bullshit such as "u are happy, i will be happy " wad cock nonesence? u cb kia , u think i happy? What u want me to do, den u will leave us alone , back to normal . give u money? find prettier girls for u? por ur lampa? (knn, also no lampa for me to por la, cb) like ah gua .
lols . my gf will be telling u, aiya, dun care phebe la, she is like that wan la .
SO?? I'm used to it . what a loser are you?
HAHAHAHAS!!! EVERYONE OF YOU, STOP ACTING!!!!
YES! I MEAN EVERYONE!!!

FCUK YOU, bladdy bastard! u know who are u , if u feel guity and shameless , mr nice guy (: lols.

u are the worst BROTHER i ever had . lols . regretted knowing you .

Bi, he is not any better den my ex right? LOLS .
you are tryyin to be the "old" me? try harder next time . (:

Yes . I told u not to compare, and u are still doing it .
so? not i meet new people . as u said its new people . jiu de bu qu xin de bu lai .
and i cant always stay with the 418s . so nu think i dun hate them?
They knew that i hate him, but they still go find him . wtf .
don't everyone deserve a second chance?
i'm just telling u, i not giving up and i'm still holding on .
i know on msn, we will quarrel . though we are letting everyone to know our conversation, at least this is better, let pple to see how sincere i am .
u may think that i toking cock so i dun mind .
he be there for u , so?
dont tell mi. i have nvr be there for u . more than he does .
u want to compare . right. i'll compare everything with u .
go ask my ex . u were the best i've treated .
the one i'll always be there.
the longest one i'm holding on to .
i became weak because i finally understand whats love , when i know i'm too strong in the past . all give in to me and now i give in to u . though i'm still trying to .
but recently u took me for granted, wad can i say .
now u want to contact him, wad can i say, nothing right, u'll still contact in also keeping me in the dark . hahahs . so no point telling u about how i felt cause u wouldnt even give me another chance . hahas . and u expect people to give u another chance .
so state everything down wad u did for me .
did i say everything u are not good and anything?
when i say ur good things, u said, dun cock la bebe . if not is, oh pls no lo .
wad else u want mi to say . nothing i could say .
u dun like me contacting pple, i didnt . will it be fair if u contact people i duno ?
u said many pple think that u are a bitch, y u still treat me like that . i really dun understand y .
u wan compare we can compare many things .
just name it all out, and after i tell u everything, u will realise how much i love u .

awww . cry lo . good for you (: u'll get ur karma .
lols .

Duno y today so happy.
kaven contacted mi, eh i not gay hor .
cause i know we have many misunderstanding (:
take care, get well soon and good luck (:

many pple ask me to get over u . i didnt
dont go back to u, i did
they say u will be in the lost for dont want me, lols, idc.
if they say u are a bitch, so? i know u are not .

Taoyan~ I still duno so many people care and will be there for me sia . HAHAHA!! awww .

Seriously . Fcuk you , screw you. Because of you and your big fat mouth, me and mantou's relationship kanasai . CB . I meet my ex so? We are like friends wad, just friends not even to the extend till close friends ok . You are all along with us slacking , what the fcuk you told mantou . u will get your fcuking karma I swear . Being a mr nice guy? Lend her a shoulder? be there for her? If you can give her more happiness den i can give her, u go ahead . what can u give her? ( )<==3 <<--- this??(smart pple understand, i duno how to draw . hahaha.) anyway, I hate u . If you dare take her away, I swear upon all the Gods above, lim pei will drag u to hell hor . knn . Thiongxim ? thiong ki dua lan la . knn . wait for "her" so long, anything in the past i always help u, now want change target so fast . cb . I know u too well, I'll let u have her, if she wants to but, if you're gonna hurt her or just going for her body, I swear I'll fcuking give you hell! KI HONG KAN LA! KNNBPCB!! MOTHAFARKER!! CB KIA!! ka ni na bu chap buey siu dai long zong dou ah!!!!! hum gah can!! lim pei eh gao ka le gan ah, niao ka le pu, qi ling ka le du, hor gorilla tiong gan la!!

SORRY FOR ALL THE VALGURS AT THE TOP. VERY ANGRY. BOBIAN, THANKS FOR YOUR UNDERSTANDING (:

Dun nid change to a better person le, none appreciate eppecially the one and only girl i changed for .



why?dulan ar?
dun admit la .

CRY LA~ -.-

I just read the msg u send me which was like 4 hours ago? u said want to be alone so I post on blog . Hope u can see . I know these "things" are not over yet . yes , I told u to stop contacting him, u said OK . In the end, u still did . You said u didnt lie den what are all these? You like whosoever because he was there for u, den me? i everyday meet u how to be there for u when i'm already with you? that time ur mummy thing, wasn't me and zoey there for you? u forgot? i tried to make you laugh and cheer up . you really forgot all our memories? loyang sec thing, i wasn't there for u? u told mi it was a crush but why this crush seems to last so long T.T? Do whatever you like bahs . As long as you are happy .
Not i offline half way . my internet sot sot den while restarting com, I go smoke what . got wrong meh .
U did wad thing to please me? pls specify the whole detail down . Yes , I admit . I treat you good, cause I scared u leave me .why not you think other way round by putting urself in my shoes, if u were me, u will also do the same thing . I give in and given in, I've changed to a better person. I've changed my temper too, cause I know both our temper very well. I became patience as u can see this afternoon, cause I waited to long, so afew hours is already nothing to me . Why I do and change things, cause i duwan another break up nor quarrelling . You said I didn't console you when you are sad, well, did u console me? u know how it feels when i told u about the rumours i heard? but i didnt do it on purpose . cause i am really shock, nothing to say but to keep questioning you , i'm sorry . But I dont know why, I still trust whatever you say . But obviously, I hope sometimes words come out from ur mouth are not true like, contact whosoever,liking whosoever blah blah blah . I wish all bad news were things u are lying to me .
And kindly please stop comparing the past and the present . will that help to save our relationship by comparing? I hope u came back because u still love me and not other reasons .
I should be the one asking u, wad else u want from me so that I can keep you by my side and not straying away from me going with some DOGS out there . You tell me what should I do . I want nothing but you . What about u? What u want? I'll try my best .
If you see this post, you msg me and give me your reply alright?
Cheer up and dont think so much . You are my angel leh . hahas . 1st impression that counts! BABYILOVEYOUwithnoregrets.

Hmmz . We had a tiff due to some mothafuckin' buey hiao bai guy who loves to contact my girlfriend .
Though my heart was shattered into pieces once again but I'll never give up .
I'm confident you'll realise what you are doing now is a wrong decision .
I'm strong . No more weakling -.-
I'll still give in and be happy no matter how hurt am I.
till my last breath, I'll still hold on .
To be a good "girlfriend" to you,
As long as you are happy, I'll be happy for you . (:
I MUST MANTAIN THE SMILE! (:

i'mma happy go lucky bung (:

never dies

Happy go lucky . (:
Im gonna be the best for you (:
weet-you-weet~

In the past, to me, promises are meant to be broken.
But, today on, its meant to be kept .

ILOVEYOUBABY!

Hmmms . Today is the 23th . 22nd had passed . Guess you still don't even have the heart . Guess you need more time . I understand . Its not easy to over come a person . Just tell me when you are ready bahs . (: Now you know why I hate promises? Hahaha .

Quote

- 我知道 Wo Zhi Dao BY2 (i know)

從來沒想過

不能再和你牽手

委屈時候 沒有你

陪著我心痛


一切都是我

太過驕縱

以為你會懂

一直忘了說

我有多感動


我知道你還是愛著我

雖然 分開的理由

我們都已接受

你知道我會有多難過

所以 即使到最後

還微笑著 要我加油

我知道你還放不下我

才會 在離開時

閉著眼沒有回頭


我們都知道彼此心中

其實 這份愛沒停過


曾經完整幸福的夢

在腦海裡頭

我多希望你

還在我左右


我知道你還是愛著我

雖然 分開的理由

我們都已接受

你知道我會有多難過

所以 即使到最後

還微笑著 要我加油

我知道你還放不下我

才會 在離開時

閉著眼沒有回頭

答應你 我會好好過

不讓 這些眼淚白流


(:

Sorry , I broke down again (:
Thanks for telling me .
Follow your heart . My prediction is true .
Nvm . (:
Just remember wad u promise

take care ,I LOVE YOU>

To Philene:
I'm sorry to hit you just now . Truly sorry . But I really don't wish you to blurt out my feelings to Mantou . I don't want you to scold her . What she want to do to me, I accept the punishment . Karma . Last time I play girls, Now I finally know how they feel . So you don't blame Mantou . I deserve it . Don't scold her anymore . Want scold , scold me, I'm the one in fault , bringing me those troubles to myself . I know you want to help me very much . Thanks SISTER. I love you alot , I'll buy nice nice Elmo for you on your birthday . (:

To Baby:
What Philene say is true . I know nothing but cry . For the 3 days, I may seems to be happy outside but actually I'm crying inside . I lied to you again say I go walk walk alone but actually I went to meet Serene . But all she do was sit down quietly and see me cry . I swear . I'm not as strong as other bungs or guy . But My love to you is very strong . You ask me wait .Yes, I'll be waiting . I promise . And what I've said to you just now, do you remember? Or are you drunk and just playing along with me? If you can recall, all those things I said are true . Many memories . Too much for me to forget . Don't blame Philene for shouting at you OK? She is just trying to help me . She is young, she don't know anything about love life . Me and Philene will be waiting . I'll be waiting for you . Sorry to let you see me cry and make you heart pain again but I've been bearing it for very long already, I cannot take it anymore thats why I broke down . Wanted to tell you all those things for last 3 days in msn, but don't know how to tell you. I scared I'll spoil your mood and the chances of us getting back together will be lesser and lesser . I'm sorry . I love you . I still want to hug and kiss you . Will you? Promise me and I'll promise you . (:

To 418:
Thanks for being there for me when I need you guys . Sharing my joy together and sorrow together . Thanks for wiping my tears when I cried . Thanks for being there to listen to me nag when I felt stress . Thanks for making me laugh when I'm feeling sad . Thanks for being there for me whenever I need you guys . Thanks for entertaining me when I'm feeling bored . Thanks for consoling me when I feel lost . I LOVE YOU GUYS!! Big THANKS to the 418 . (: Our brothership will not be broken . (: THANKS!

I love Philene, Babygirl mantou and the 418s! and not forgetting my family la duh~ -.-

Haaha . Why am I still crying and thinking ? I am so dumb . Whats done has done . I've tried many ways smile. Sorry to dissappoint you if I can't . another 5 more day to 22nd july . It's like dooms day. Hais . Hope that day don't come so soon(praying) .

Breathless.

If our love was a fairytale
I would charge in and rescue you
On a yacht baby we would sail
To an island where we'd say I do
And if we had babies they would look like you
It'd be so beautiful if that came true
You don't even know how very special you are

[Chorus]You leave me breathless
You're everything good in my life
You leave me breathless
I still can't believe that you're mine
You just walked out of one of my dreams
So beautiful you're leaving me
Breathless

And if our love was a story book
We would meet on the very first page
The last chapter would be about
How I'm thankful for the life we've made
And if we had babies they would have your eyes
I would fall deeper watching you give life
You don't even know how very special you are

[Chorus]
You leave me breathless
You're everything good in my life
You leave me breathless
I still can't believe that you're mine
You just walked out of one of my dreams
So beautiful you're leaving me
Breathless

You must have been sent from heaven to earth to change me
You're like an angel
The thing that I feel is stronger than love believe me
You're something special
I only hope that I'll one day deserve what you've given me
But all I can do is try
Every day of my life


No one is perfect.
To me, you are.
Don't say sorry. No more sorry .

奇迹会出现吗?
对不起.

Okay . I don't know what else I can say .

Firstly , I am a very bad boyfriend who don't understand girlfriend well . I treat her very badly . I'm a failure . I don't dare to ask for her forgiveness . She is the first girl I really love and dote so much . She is the only one for me .

Our story started on 090209 . A date that I'll never forget . She taught me what is love .

She always gives in to me which I didn't notice till now . I'm the one who is usually first at fault but don't admit . Make her worry every night, make her afraid when I throw my temper , make her sad saying harsh things, broke ups, shouting , screaming and yelling at her . But all she does was keep quiet and tolerant . She broke down times and times again, countless times, but what I did was nothing .

All my promises to her are all bullshits, and I keep telling her that "promises are meant to be broken" , but she still hold on to my promises . That was what she always say "promise me and I'll promise you" . I finally understand that sentence , the true meaning, I really do . "I can't live without you", that's what she said when I suggest a break up with her and I used to think its all bullshits . But now, I got the same feeling too . I doubt she knows that . I control her by not letting her go modelling, eat slimming pills, go drinking with others etc etc .

I miss her, I really really really do . Though, when she was just right beside me just now, but I cant get close to her . Cant hug her , kiss her and hold her hands like we used to . So near yet so far . Many places we went, had already left many memories deeply printed there .

Went to downtown, I saw her image hoking my arms and walk , 444, image of her sitting beside me drinking, 418, image of her singing and laughing ,cuddling each other like a lovely couple . I feel very secured when she was around my arms . I really cannot do without her .

Though it was just a shortly 5 months, but it seems that we have known each other for don't know how many years . My closest girlfriend ever . I'm not happy at all now .

If things can start all over again, I'll be faithful to her . I'll be devoted to her . I'll not lie to her . I'll be true to her . I wont meet any of my ex- girlfriends . I'll listen to her . I'll say yes to her anything she wants . I'll not be as selfish-thinking as in the past . I'll drive her anywhere she wants to go . I'll be loyal to her . I'll cherish her . I'll treat her like a princess, a treasure . I'll protect her . I'll always be by her side . I'll not leave her anymore . Its all promises which meant to be kept .

And lastly, I'll love her for who she is .

Baby, I miss you . T.T

When will you come back to me?

Come back into my arms , will you?

Kiss me with your tender lips, will you?

Touch me will your silky fingers , will you?

Catch my tears when I cry, will you?

Comfort me when I'm sad, will you?

Laugh with me when I'll happy , will you?

Calm me down when I'm angry, will you?

Give me many many advice , will you?

Sing songs for me, will you?

Teach me Cantonese, will you?

Cuddle me closely and tightly to your body , will you?

Poke my belly button, will you?

Watch TV with me, will you?

Say stories to entertain me, will you?

Paint my nails for me , will you?

Play with my piercings, will you?

Eat with me, will you?

See me cook for you, will you?

Look into my eyes with your beautiful eyes, will you?

Take lots of pictures with me, will you?

Disturb me when I'm sleeping, will you?

See me sleep, will you?

Web cam with me will you?

Pluck my fizzy hair one by one for me, will you?

Meet me at 418 , will you?

Go shopping with me to bugis , will you?

Listen to my naggings, will you?

Wait for my car licence with me , will you?

Go to zoo and many places with me, will you?

Beat me, scold me, scream at me when I'm wrong, will you?

See me dance while you video down ,will you?

Seasha together with me, will you?

Go to the beach for a walk, will you?

Plan our future with me, will you?

Celebrate happy occasion with me, will you?

Let me surprise you with our anniversary gifts, will you?

Accompany me always, will you?

Let me dote you, will you?

Let me love you, will you?

Don't leave me, can you?

Love me ,will you?

I'm sincerely sorry for all these months how I've been treated you .

Maybe sorry can't mend your heart back to piece and come back to me,

But I want to let you know,

Without you with me, I'm not moving on.

I've regretted for what I've done in the past .

I neglected you too much . I left you far behind . Its my fault .

Maybe you see this blog, you wont be touched, won't return back to me, thinking that it is another piece of sweet talking- compo,

But I just want to let you know something .

Knowing you is the happiest thing in my life .

I've never regretted knowing you .

I'm already the happiest bung on earth .

I love you much much .

Baby T.T

Your Bebe is still waiting .T.T

Please, I beg you, faster come back , My Dear . T.T

I want you back, because I need you. You are special . You'll never be replace .

I love bunnie.

A million needles and pins piercing through my heart . Hahaha .
Biggest fool on earth .
I'll wait for that day . (:
I'll work hard .
I've got no choice but to leave .
I'm sorry .
I'll be back (:

Woke up, bathe, meet Khalid, when to cousin house and move off. cousin de bf bring me to 100+ which is near darrel house and zoey house there to wait for his fren . On the way there, he ask me i know this person , thst person, Yes i know . Dunno wad they say to my cousin de bf lo . -.- can waiting for their fren, he ask mi know who his fren , i said duno . but in the end, i realise its someone i have piang before de . walao eh . sway sia . den they go eat . after that go to a pub . Thinking of the past , I drink drink drink . Martel sia . didnt mix lo . abit tipsy . Last min, went to club Nana . fuck!! There is a prositude trying to be touchy with me . But thinking of MAntou, I tried to control myself . I tried to control myself , but however, I felt that its stupid . since mantou dont care so much, y did i care too???? hahhaha . stupid me . should have just fuck it!! hHHhHhHAHHAHHAHAHHAHAHA .anyway was high there . hahah .

Today is me and baby's 5th monthsary,so i met her at 418 and brought her to e hub to eat (:
Don't feel like eating at first but when i saw baby's stern face,i suddenly changed my mine.HAHA!! I ate terriyaki chicken and she ate salmon (: The food there taste not bad.After eating,smoke break and went to fair price buy beer.Baby bought her biore pore pack thingy,went to my house and we did it together.I paste till out of place but baby's one is so perfect.Cause she always do it at home la O: Watched vcd and baby went to take cab home.Wanted to go 444 but was lazy .Meeting reuben later on and gonna accompany baby to her grandma's place (:

I love you manymany,deepdeep <3

Happy 5th month Anniversary, LAOPO!! ^^

Today ,rot at home the whole day . Baby came up to my house . Planned to go down and find the rest but we didn't ,cause we watched tv till quite late . Hahaha . Baby kept on complaining that she's hungry la -.- SO... I ransacked the whole fridge to see what I can cook for her . Hahahah!!!!! Let's see what I've digged out... hmmz.. There are prawns, hotdogs, fishballs, garlic, tomatoes, tomato sauce and chilli sauce . Decided to cook tomato prawn for her, my first attempt to cook . Although it taste not as delicious as how my dad cook, but my skills are not bad, EDIBLE lo . Ask her nice a not . Baby, if it's not nice cannot blame me okay -.- Cause Papa taught me how to cook it by telling me and not demonstrating it . So its considered a pass for first timer . Hahahhaha . When I said," Baby, this is our 5th month anni present from me to you", her face change lo =.= Promised her to cook better things tomorrow . Awww. See the way she eat so cute and especially when her cute little tummy popping out . HAHAHAH!! After eating, seems like she was very satisfied, so we use the computer awhile and then watch tv again . Though we were staying at home all the way, but I do enjoy it a lot a lot . Sent her to take cab at 418 and meet ridhwan . Went to 444 drink again . Have been drinking since last year end . Gosh~ my beer belly is so so so big la . Drank 2 bottles but not even tipsy(which I don't know why) . I guess its because I'm in a good mood bahs . Didn't even quarrel with Baby today . Happy happy(: Slacked awhile and went home (:

Baby, Happy 5th month anniversary!
I just want to let you know :
No matter what happen:

I'll not give up so easily .
I'll hold you up if you fall.
I'll be there for you when you need me.
I'll lend you my shoulder to lean on.
I'll listen to you.
I'll share your happiness and your sorrows with you.
I'll hold on to you and make you stay by my side.
I'll help you fulfil you wishes.
I'll be your wonderful and special person .

So fast 5months has passed with so many happy and sad moments .
Waiting for more and more anniversaries coming up with you .
I believe that there is forever, the eternity, when you exist .
Lastly, I love you much much .
Want to be your only lady (:
woainihenduohenduo . MWACKS!

HAPPY 5TH MONTHS ANNIVERSARY , SAMANTHA ONG JUN!!

HAHAHAHAHAHHAHA!!

Woke up at 6? Went down to 418 to meet the same people . Slacked slacked slacked, went to buy drinks and stuffs . Drunk and high~ Once I'm concious, I saw Baby keep crying, tried to stop her for crying . I forgot what happened totally . And yes! I meant TOTALLY!! She told me I want to die and stuff . Lols . Sad love life ar? I'm strong .
Adam talked to me and I dont know why, I felt very sad . It dont seems like a dream do you know that, Adam? Is like so real . 3 people dreamt the same dream, how do you explain that . But, I trust my gf . Sorry to attitude you. Honestly, somehow, I still do feel pissed off!
Baby, I'm sorry for everything . I didnt regret . Having you by my side is my fortune . Sorry for making you cry, which I dont know why -.-
Everyone have to die someday no matter what . Die early, die later at the old stage, in the end still have to die . Why not spend your everyday happily and leave the earth with no regrets .
Hmmms , somehow, I think I need to see a phycologist . I've been keep thinking that I'm gonna die soon . And sometimes I've keep thinking, while looking out of the window, up the sky, how wonderful is it up there . Awwww~ I've been thinking of committing suicide recently too . But, I don't have the courage . And ya, I'm afraid of heights and pain, phobia. So now, all I can wish , was to die peacefully in my dream . But before I end everything, I got to fufil my wish and I guess it'll have to take some years . This is what we call "think too much" . Think until can go crazy . I wish they put me into IMH so I can talk to those people who "think too much" till they go crazy too . I guess, I'm gonna be one of them . Maybe, they understand me? Hahaha . Life is so interesting, incredible and unpredictable la . Somehow, I think I'm someone very special in my past life . Let me just live another 5 years will do .
I'm going to have car pratical this coming Sunday and maybe I'm going to city harvest . So excited la . So long didnt go church le . Happy happy! [:
Tml will be our 5th month anni . Will it be a happy anni? I hope so . I wish I'm a robot like the jue shi nan you . Just to become Samantha Ng Jun's ideal boyfriend . [:

Yea . Maybe we should take a break (:
Reflect . Do you feel lonely when i ignore u? hmmmz .
Hahas . 9th Aug 09 . still counting on . Maybe we can take a long long break after that? i'm waiting .

So sad . You can't even be my listening ear . Let me vent anger will die meh . -.- Will you lose a piece of flesh? You went to meet someone I also didn't say anything . You leh ? -.-
People do change . Unreasonable and not understanding is the two best examples .
Anyway, was feeling very down today . Dont wish to say much . Woke up, bathe, meet reuben and co at 418 . slack . Drink, drank , drunk? i suppose? hmmmz . I don't know . hungry, home .
Do what ever you want . continue ):


I'm feeling lonely . I'm all alone . I'll be fine .
who can let me vent anger on?
Be my listening ear.......


My life is so screwed . FCUK IT .
No one understands me .

I miss my BABY!!! BABY!! I WANT BAOBAO!!