Okay . I don't know what else I can say .

Firstly , I am a very bad boyfriend who don't understand girlfriend well . I treat her very badly . I'm a failure . I don't dare to ask for her forgiveness . She is the first girl I really love and dote so much . She is the only one for me .

Our story started on 090209 . A date that I'll never forget . She taught me what is love .

She always gives in to me which I didn't notice till now . I'm the one who is usually first at fault but don't admit . Make her worry every night, make her afraid when I throw my temper , make her sad saying harsh things, broke ups, shouting , screaming and yelling at her . But all she does was keep quiet and tolerant . She broke down times and times again, countless times, but what I did was nothing .

All my promises to her are all bullshits, and I keep telling her that "promises are meant to be broken" , but she still hold on to my promises . That was what she always say "promise me and I'll promise you" . I finally understand that sentence , the true meaning, I really do . "I can't live without you", that's what she said when I suggest a break up with her and I used to think its all bullshits . But now, I got the same feeling too . I doubt she knows that . I control her by not letting her go modelling, eat slimming pills, go drinking with others etc etc .

I miss her, I really really really do . Though, when she was just right beside me just now, but I cant get close to her . Cant hug her , kiss her and hold her hands like we used to . So near yet so far . Many places we went, had already left many memories deeply printed there .

Went to downtown, I saw her image hoking my arms and walk , 444, image of her sitting beside me drinking, 418, image of her singing and laughing ,cuddling each other like a lovely couple . I feel very secured when she was around my arms . I really cannot do without her .

Though it was just a shortly 5 months, but it seems that we have known each other for don't know how many years . My closest girlfriend ever . I'm not happy at all now .

If things can start all over again, I'll be faithful to her . I'll be devoted to her . I'll not lie to her . I'll be true to her . I wont meet any of my ex- girlfriends . I'll listen to her . I'll say yes to her anything she wants . I'll not be as selfish-thinking as in the past . I'll drive her anywhere she wants to go . I'll be loyal to her . I'll cherish her . I'll treat her like a princess, a treasure . I'll protect her . I'll always be by her side . I'll not leave her anymore . Its all promises which meant to be kept .

And lastly, I'll love her for who she is .

Baby, I miss you . T.T

When will you come back to me?

Come back into my arms , will you?

Kiss me with your tender lips, will you?

Touch me will your silky fingers , will you?

Catch my tears when I cry, will you?

Comfort me when I'm sad, will you?

Laugh with me when I'll happy , will you?

Calm me down when I'm angry, will you?

Give me many many advice , will you?

Sing songs for me, will you?

Teach me Cantonese, will you?

Cuddle me closely and tightly to your body , will you?

Poke my belly button, will you?

Watch TV with me, will you?

Say stories to entertain me, will you?

Paint my nails for me , will you?

Play with my piercings, will you?

Eat with me, will you?

See me cook for you, will you?

Look into my eyes with your beautiful eyes, will you?

Take lots of pictures with me, will you?

Disturb me when I'm sleeping, will you?

See me sleep, will you?

Web cam with me will you?

Pluck my fizzy hair one by one for me, will you?

Meet me at 418 , will you?

Go shopping with me to bugis , will you?

Listen to my naggings, will you?

Wait for my car licence with me , will you?

Go to zoo and many places with me, will you?

Beat me, scold me, scream at me when I'm wrong, will you?

See me dance while you video down ,will you?

Seasha together with me, will you?

Go to the beach for a walk, will you?

Plan our future with me, will you?

Celebrate happy occasion with me, will you?

Let me surprise you with our anniversary gifts, will you?

Accompany me always, will you?

Let me dote you, will you?

Let me love you, will you?

Don't leave me, can you?

Love me ,will you?

I'm sincerely sorry for all these months how I've been treated you .

Maybe sorry can't mend your heart back to piece and come back to me,

But I want to let you know,

Without you with me, I'm not moving on.

I've regretted for what I've done in the past .

I neglected you too much . I left you far behind . Its my fault .

Maybe you see this blog, you wont be touched, won't return back to me, thinking that it is another piece of sweet talking- compo,

But I just want to let you know something .

Knowing you is the happiest thing in my life .

I've never regretted knowing you .

I'm already the happiest bung on earth .

I love you much much .

Baby T.T

Your Bebe is still waiting .T.T

Please, I beg you, faster come back , My Dear . T.T

I want you back, because I need you. You are special . You'll never be replace .

I love bunnie.