Woke up at 6? Went down to 418 to meet the same people . Slacked slacked slacked, went to buy drinks and stuffs . Drunk and high~ Once I'm concious, I saw Baby keep crying, tried to stop her for crying . I forgot what happened totally . And yes! I meant TOTALLY!! She told me I want to die and stuff . Lols . Sad love life ar? I'm strong .
Adam talked to me and I dont know why, I felt very sad . It dont seems like a dream do you know that, Adam? Is like so real . 3 people dreamt the same dream, how do you explain that . But, I trust my gf . Sorry to attitude you. Honestly, somehow, I still do feel pissed off!
Baby, I'm sorry for everything . I didnt regret . Having you by my side is my fortune . Sorry for making you cry, which I dont know why -.-
Everyone have to die someday no matter what . Die early, die later at the old stage, in the end still have to die . Why not spend your everyday happily and leave the earth with no regrets .
Hmmms , somehow, I think I need to see a phycologist . I've been keep thinking that I'm gonna die soon . And sometimes I've keep thinking, while looking out of the window, up the sky, how wonderful is it up there . Awwww~ I've been thinking of committing suicide recently too . But, I don't have the courage . And ya, I'm afraid of heights and pain, phobia. So now, all I can wish , was to die peacefully in my dream . But before I end everything, I got to fufil my wish and I guess it'll have to take some years . This is what we call "think too much" . Think until can go crazy . I wish they put me into IMH so I can talk to those people who "think too much" till they go crazy too . I guess, I'm gonna be one of them . Maybe, they understand me? Hahaha . Life is so interesting, incredible and unpredictable la . Somehow, I think I'm someone very special in my past life . Let me just live another 5 years will do .
I'm going to have car pratical this coming Sunday and maybe I'm going to city harvest . So excited la . So long didnt go church le . Happy happy! [:
Tml will be our 5th month anni . Will it be a happy anni? I hope so . I wish I'm a robot like the jue shi nan you . Just to become Samantha Ng Jun's ideal boyfriend . [: