A new start

2010-06-09T18:52:00.004+08:00

至少还有你 Zhi Shao Hai You Ni

" I want to be with you till the day, your hair turn white and your face full of winkles " LOLS!

梁靜茹-會呼吸的痛MV

2010-06-06T21:43:00.004+08:00

LOLS! Whatever . Where am I when you msg me?? -.- Hello, I was at BBQ pit k . Yes, I was having LOTSA FUN! And oh ya, you are damn right, I don't even bother and care about you . So you think I don't need to help the rest carry the stuffs to the pit and I am not sick . NOT SICK AT ALL LA! Whick one more jialat, your pms or my fever . please luhhhhhh~ Think whatever you like . I'm your FREAKING GIRLFRIEND, not your CHU QI TONG! So don't every fcuking month PMS, and vent your dk what fcuking anger on me . Its a fcuking warning!! Continue putting on your fcuking twitter and tell people how bad or whatever stuff I treat you k . THANKS! BIG BIG THANK! LOLS!!!! I never treated you good before! NEVER! LOLS! But you sure are one GOOD GIRLFRIEND . LOLSLOLSLOLS!!!

2010-04-26T00:47:00.002+08:00

So tiredddddddd . Has been working since last two weeks ago . Not as bad as what I've thought . Didn't get enough sleep everyday . sob . Hmmmz . Gonna find myself another job to keep myself really busy :D 2 part time jobs will be just right for me!! HAHAHAH!!!

LOLS! I'll prove to you all that I'm not those kind slacking under blk anymore! LOLS! Maybe you are the worst of all, bloody fat fugly bitch! :D

2010-04-15T01:18:00.001+08:00

Thought you've changed . LOLs! Still a disappointment . I won't be serious , It'll only hurt me more . LOLS!!

2010-04-05T02:41:00.002+08:00

Fcuk this shit . Darling I miss you :'( sorry for what I've done .

Why do you adults want to break up a couple who love one another so much . You guys are married, don't you all have any feelings? Why are you guys sooooo heartless ?!?! Tell me . Who say lesbian cannot last and seriously age dosen't matters . So what if she is younger than me by 6 years . We too are humans . We guys got feelings too . But why cant you all put yourself in my or julia's shoes? heartless people . Will Julia be happy if you guys pull her away from me? If yes, she will be happy, I'm glad to leave her . All i ask was your blessings . You guys dont deaserve to be loved or to love others , seriously . I will be with Julia and will continue to love her from now and always . ALL WAYS!! GET IT?!?!?

2010-03-28T13:49:00.002+08:00

OMG! I had an car accident this morning. FCUK! Scared the shit outta me! And the worst thing is, after the accident, the other driver just drove off like that . My instructor brought me to pasir ris police post to lodge a report . After 5 hours, that driver called me and say this morning he just drove off was because he is rushing for work . I was like -.- ZZzzzZZZzz Not my car anyway, call my instructor if you want to explain . LOLS!! -.-

2010-03-23T01:28:00.006+08:00

Hello world due to the conflict on Phebe's tagboard, i shall write an awesome(might be a self-deception but whatever i happy can alrd) post about it.

No this is not Phebe blogging. Phebe may not be that childish or crude but i am. SO TOO BAD.
Don't you know how much of a slut you sounded babe?
Read between the lines clearly.. You are so fucking A.N.N.O.Y.I.N.G! It still doesn't gets you? Because if it doesn't, you don't have feelings. YOU DONT
Thinking about it, I don't even understand why you're here. I dont see a need in polluting the tagboard, it only proves how much of a boliao person you are and that you're still in the 2007 days when spamming is a hobby
I do think Phebe is better than all of you put together so stop with the insults trying to make her feel inferior cause she only cares about what I think and all you've said would be pointless :)
You're not as smart as you think. (no need for further elaboration)
You're pollution. Time to go off now, maybe?
You know what, Phebe's influential, people come to support/stand up for her. What about you? There are only like one or two of you here. You're just making yourself a pest. Buzz off. In case your head is to small to digest that, i'm asking you to g-o a-w-a-y. make the sounds with me. G-O A-W-A-Y.

Once again, this was obviously not done by Phebe. She's too classy for this, but I'm not. And if you're curious, I'm the 14years old little girl who "cannot make a living for myself", her girlfriend.
xoxo

Love you darl :)

2010-03-19T20:10:00.003+08:00

Nowadays the spammer all so bo liao . last time still will come out talk, now only dare say behind com .LOLS . Hey, you guys are simply jealous of my life :D okok, no need say . I know that . hahahs . Jealous that, I got fats and it makes me too cute . Jealous that I got the looks to be a playboy and play around with the girls, cause nobody wants you? Jealous I got a wonderful girldfriend that you don't have, the best sister, philene, that you won't have? Jealous of the 418 ? LOLS . Don't jealous ok? hahas . continue spamming cause I love t entertain you spammers . I've waited for like afew months, but no one came to entertain me . HAHAHAHS!!! Everynight must reply ok? (Y)

2010-03-13T20:59:00.002+08:00

Why like that . why . I've been spending all these months trying to turn my love to hate and with your one action, everything went down the drain . haven't seen you so close for so long . You've change . sighs~

2010-03-01T01:20:00.002+08:00

Rest ensure Darl , I'll be a good bf , a good hubby to you in the future . I didn't realize you meant so much to me until just now . I can't live w/o you . I'll be more caring and won't attitude you often anymore . I really love you . I don't care what others say, I with small girl or whatever craps , I only care what you say and think . You are the one that is important to me, not them . No matter what, you are my gf . It's my duty to protect you . Even if we really end our r/s one day, I'll make sure it will be a sweet , wonderful and the most memorable memory you'll ever have . This I promise you . You'll never be a bad gf to me . You are the wonderful one . I'm glad I found you . Don't walk out of my life alright? You brighten up my life . Thank god I found you, I'm lost without you . I love you always, all ways :D I miss you . Your hugs and kisses too . mwackzxc!

9 more days to 3rd month anniversary!!
guinea pig is coming up (:
<3 x100000000000000000000000

2010-02-28T07:12:00.003+08:00

Whatever it is . if you want, love me for who I am . You ain't no better . forget about our deal and stuff alright . You are no different from other girls . Still the same . Lols . claps* Lols, ya rightg, you give in to me? lols . fine, up to you . i shan't care anymore too .

2010-02-26T23:33:00.001+08:00

Tsk tsk tsk . I think this game is getting more and more fun :D HAHAHAHAS!!!!

Lets have some fun :D
Wait and see (:

2010-02-25T18:29:00.002+08:00

Its so obvious that I won . Wait hold on! the way you say, are you letting me win or its the fact that you are the loser? LOLS!! you don't have to let me you know??? you know?? HAHAHAHHAHAHAS!!!!!! Aiya, who win or lose never mind . one last advice to you small girl, don't bring yourself so many trouble when you can save it and last see who the person you dealing with , yi shan hai bi yi shan gao .

2010-02-24T21:02:00.002+08:00

To you young lady too :

It wasn't her lost . It was "his" lost . In your ass la, in your face . You are the one should think twice before saying the others . You do backstab too, didnt you?? (bigbigbig secret ya? you should know) To your best/close sister, who is there for you everytime? I damn pity her siol, she is still kept in the dark . wtf . Who is the biggest loser? We still don't know . LOLS!! Anyway, no one is saying about you or stuff, you yourself want to kpo so , bring it on . Why? jealous about her? much more better than you? Yes, we need to work, but... why are you entertaining her ? Its not all bungs she is naming bitchy gays , get it right -.- Aren't you doing the same, assuming too? To me, you don't worth my promise? so its right for me to break my promise to you . Didnt you break your promise in your whole lifetime before? I guess you are worst than me? LOLS! If you think you got the right to say others, you've got to be better than the person but .. uh uh~ I don't think so . You think everyone likes you . oh man . pls . I was wrong about you too . poor me ): Just because of your looks and your gorgeous hot body, people make friends with you , but people who are with you long, uds your true colour, one by one left you . ain't I right? Think about it young babe . Especially this thing has nothing to do with you , don't have to bring yourself so many trouble .

May god bless you and forgive your sin .

2010-02-23T04:21:00.003+08:00

Hey there you! Yes you!! You are bound to lose to me always . Remember all ways!! Yes!! IN ALL WAYS!!!

Fcuk that shit!! The sight of you makes me wanna puke!

<3 my darling ahliaeeyore!!

Nothings gonna change my love for you . You make me happy :D never fail to make me smile or laugh everyday . I love you my dearest darl . 4 eeyores , one more coming up! :D

17 more days to our 3rd months anni!
wo ai ni!
my one and only love!!
We'll last! I mean it! we'll see, suckers!!!

2010-02-09T07:38:00.002+08:00

Darling , don't worry . Everything will be fine . Don't be angry , guilty or upset anymore . You don't wish this kind of thing will happen, isn't it ? Your ahma won't blame you de . Don't worry, I'll be there for you . LOVELOVE x100000 . As long as you don't cry anymore, I'll do whatever thing to stop your tears from flowing . I'll protect you :D I miss you . <3 sweetsweetloves :p

Went shopping with Zoey, Junhan, SK and SK's woman? Hahahas . Hmmz , though little people, but we did enjoy, I guess so? Shop for 3 tops for the whole evening . ZZZZZ . Went to find Isabella . Half way shopping, saw Darling and Rebecca, kinda shock O.o what a small world . FATE!! Gave her a hug and continue with my shopping, while she went to somerset . Saw zhilin and her neighbour . kinda excited cause so long didn't see her . LOLS!! Hugged my PB, smoked, chit-chatted and off I went shopping again :D Weeet~ Time passes faster and faster each day (:

OHYA!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY JUNHAN!!! :D

dalang dalang,
dalang
dalang, dalang, dalang, dalang, dalang ~

2010-02-02T01:08:00.002+08:00

I'm used to see you everyday . OMG! suddenly three days can't see you . sialah, you and your stupid camp -.- I miss you to the max know . When you are with me, I always scold you, argue with you and torture you but when I can't see you, I feel so lonely . Will be fetching my lovely sou pi hou (skinny monkey) darling on wednesday . Wait wait for that day to arrive . LOVES!! 2nd month anni is around the corner ^^ weet~ what to get for that sou pi hou leh???!!! tsksk . Will update more next time :D

2010-01-05T04:40:00.002+08:00

Yes, I'm here to blog again . hmmmz . Went to JustAsia with Darling and bring her to eat . We had a long chat about the past . Haha . Maybe its not a veh good thing to talk about the past . Look forward to our future will be much more better and nicer .

It's 4.45am and I still not sleeping again . Maybe its because without you beside me, I find it hard to turn in . toss here and there , still can't get to sleep . my mind its all about you . Why? Once I had the thought of we'll be meeting soon, I will get excited and can't sleep again . hahas . Anyway, dont worry, a promise is a promise, I'll fetch you from school and bring you to movie tomorrow (: Darling woaini henduohenduo <3

You are the one that pull me up after a great fall (:
You are the one that is there beside me when I needed someone (:
People who don't cherish you in the past, thats their own lost . But the lucky thing is that, I've found you! Actually we've known each other longer than what I've thought, Its such a waste that I hadn't notice you in the past . And now, you too, is part of my life too! I <3 you, my SweetDarling!

P.s: Sometimes the person you really need is the one you didn't think you wanted .

2010-01-04T00:41:00.006+08:00

I'm craving for cigg :'(
gonna die soon . Can't live w/o cigg . OMG .
should I or shouldn't ???????????????????????????????

Its 5.45am and i'm still not asleep , and yet I'm missing you . I am worry for you too . Hais . Usually, you are the one who is missing me like there is no tomorrow and worrying for me when I'm not with you . But now it seems like the opposite way . I miss you cause you are gonna have lesser time with me than usual ): I worry for you because I scared you will be bullied in school or something might happen to you ): I know I'm thinking too much . But thats because I care . I'm loving you more and more each day as days goes by thus, I getting more and more afraid . Afraid that you'll leave me like how they did . ): Darling, I love you and I miss you .

2010-01-04T00:16:00.002+08:00

HMMMZ . Veh veh veh long didn't update le -.-

First of all, Happy New Year everyone . (: And byebye to 2009!! :D

Many many bad things happened during 2009 and I hope history wouldn't repeat itself . TYVM :D

Spent my x'mas eve at reuben's condo and celebrated ah barn b'day (:
444, drink drank and abit tipsy (: darling brought me home .

Downtown Coastasand Chalet 3 days 2 nights for 2010 countdown . Having lots of fun there . But there was one girl there and spoilt everyone's mood . @#$%$T^# WTF!! sososososo irritating -.- Hmmmz . Was high on the 1st night . Hahahas , Yes, I puked . HAhahas . -.-

Darling . sorry to scold you everytime you make me angry . I was used to be pampered and gived in by others . I don't mean to scold you . But of course, I'll be your longest bf and the one that treat you the best . love the way your muke mantain . HAHAHAs . (: Love the way you smile , you hugged me and the way you say, "I love you" . <3

2009-12-18T19:49:00.019+08:00

Hi world! It's been quite a long time since she updated.. I got a million of things to blog about for her(not really) but i don't have the mood to do it now(fake). So anyway, here's just a brief update.

I revamped this site. And it looks so much better, right? Better say yes if not your mother die.

Hmm, how should i put everything... Life's good for both me and her? Ok maybe not for me cause i've to face what've dread most soon. School. Ugh. But apart from that life's goody good. In fact i love life right now. Cause I've got what means the world to me. Fatty~ Hahaha.

Cant think of anything else at the moment, so, till then! :)

xoxo

2009-12-10T05:54:00.002+08:00

BIG BIG SMILE!! :D Hahahahas!!! Its a good chance :D

2009-12-06T21:59:00.003+08:00

Ying gwah sia jai- "I would've never thought that the person who would hurt me the most would be the person that I loved the most ."

Give a miss for the job fair, suppose to go with Wan and Ahlia . But was being put areoplane by Ahlia, so didnt actually have the mood to go . Haha . Fooled again by her . Can't believe that I've been fooled again~ give movie a miss too . Thanks to her . Am not gonna watch movie with her anymore!

Damn moodless for anything now . Darn it . feel damn frustrated now . somehow I feel that, its not a good thing to fall in love . I'm gonna work tomorrow . I hope tomorrow will be a busy day and not full of slacking at work like usual , hopefully I won't be late too .

The only time I feel happy was with you , time passes fast .
You are like my drug, so addictive .

BYE LINA

2009-12-06T07:42:00.002+08:00

BYEBYE LINA . I'll miss you . I love you . Thanks for what you have done for our family for the pass 3 years . I miss you . T.T You are my best maid ever T.T Why you go back ? T.T

2009-12-06T06:03:00.002+08:00

I think I'm falling in love again, give me more time :D hahas . Awwwww :$ ~ you are sweet, aren't you sweetie? I'll never let you down again, anymore . Its just the beginning~

2009-12-05T15:24:00.003+08:00

I'm sososo stress!!!! I realise I miss you . Am I like moving on already or what -.-

2009-12-05T10:37:00.002+08:00

OMG!! I'm like drunk can . Haiyo . How I come back home, I also don't know . Lols . Jordon said I hug the girls . OMG . pls lo -.- . ewwwwwwww~ Sabai sabai ystd . Wah . 5towers ystd . CMI !!! Hangover~! omg omg omg omg . DARLINGGGGGGGG!! I'm SORRY . I LET YOU DOWN!!!!!!

2009-12-03T19:05:00.003+08:00

Those memories flashed back where ever I am again . What happen sia -.- I need to get a new job and keep myself busy again in order not to think so much . What The Fuck is wrong with me!!!! Thought I've like "had already gotten over"? Shitzxzx . I doubt she remembers whats she said ):

i love you once, i'll love you still .
i'm sososo naive

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2009-11-30T15:58:00.000+08:00

why aren't you happy? ):

2009-11-25T10:00:00.003+08:00

Fell twice in a day yesterday . BIG BIG THANKS TO JLSY . :@
FcukerDotzzzzz . first at downtown and second at 418 -.-
Didnt know she is afraid of xiao qiang too . YOU DIE!!!

444 with Barnabus, Zihao, Yupei, JLSY , Michelle and Dennis . Michelle went home . The 6 of us started saying ghost sotries . Walao eh . I was sitting in between Dennis and Barn, kena slap many many times on my thigh by Mr Barnabus o.O so pain la can . The story-telling session ended at 2.30. We escort Barn home as he beg us to . Scary cat -.- Dennis also another one -.- keep wanting to go my house as he also scared . WHERE ALL YOUR BALLS?!?!?!? ALAMAK!!! Anyway, had a veh veh veh fun day with them :D I'm glad that you are getting happier each day~ :D

Impossible~
If possible, I'll jump down from the tallest building
Hahahahhahahhahas!!!!!

2009-11-23T17:19:00.002+08:00

I've been thinking about it everyday .
I am going to start my life new afresh again . I am not going to wait or move on . I'll just leave everything to fate .
Goodluck to everything you do ^^

sorry for hurting you, my heart is with someone else . I hope you won't waste your precious time on me anymore . I'll still be your fat, dun worry . (:

1234567 piang~!!! hahahahas .

Hurt so bad (:

2009-11-20T10:31:00.005+08:00

Currently still looking for a full-time job . Hais . I need a stable income man . Gosh . If not I can't even support myself, don't even mention about moviong out -.- Anyway, work work work recently as a part time ): I seriously need a break .

Celebrated Michelle's birthday the day before yesterday and drink drank but not drunk which I don't know why . Hahahas . Almost everyone there who drink were drunk .SOOOOooo weak -.- KNS! Most steady drinker are me and MR. WEIHAN . Haha .
I hope Michelle enjoy her day too (: Cause "someone" came down . HAHAHAHAS!!
Enjoyable day(:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO JUJU(Julius)!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!
WEETS~(:

Gonna celebrate for you today(:

FRIDAY = PAYDAY!! :D

Iloveit~

哭了才发现自己真的受伤了
你曾对我说你永远是我的。
为了爱情我把自己的幸福都忘了
你快乐我就快乐

也许,是我们彼此都太年轻了
总是特别容易沉溺在爱情里
每当我再次看到身边美丽的花火，
你已离开我我还是想对你说：

baby I love u so much, 你走了我的心在淌血
baby u hurt me so bad,想要你回到我的世界
baby I love u so much, 你给我的诺言已经瓦解
baby u hurt me so bad

只要我们都爱着，无论多苦都值得
说好的？怎么忘记了

why isin't it pain anymore? :D
move on , I'll stay . GRATZ :D

betterintime~

2009-11-08T12:22:00.002+08:00

Many things happen recently so fast .

Meet up with my beloved biao jie , summer breeze almost everyday to drink . so kind of her, haha . I think she is going to broke .
Gosh~ Hangover. Stupid china guy, last min bought out Martel, and we HAVE TO finish up -.-
Drove my cousin car around . Haha . 1st time I'm driving a auto-car .
Fun~

Gonna meet up will Barnabus to Zirca . YEAH!! many people will be going . HAHAHAS!!! ^^

:I, won't and will never move on cause I am still loving her . I'm sorry .

2009-11-06T03:01:00.006+08:00

I'm moving out in 2 weeks time i guess (:
not staying in pasir ris,anymore .

lou poh,nor ho gua ju neh, ngor zhong yu neh ho duo ho duo . ngor um moi lei lei hoi gho, dui um chi gho ghum yung zou, ngor chi chor le,hei mong lei hor yi wan dou yat gor bi ngor ghum hoi de yan, ngor hoi see bai, ngor hou doi um chee lei,ngor wooi dan lei fan lei ngor san bin, dui um chi, lou poh, ngor oi lei .

sorry , MIA. <3 090209

2009-10-31T06:32:00.002+08:00

GONE! thanks for all the memories . NO MORE! too late?
New memories?

Yay . u did it! congrats !

LOVES ARE BULLSHITS

FCUKING LIAR

2009-10-30T01:40:00.002+08:00

LIAR! your watch spoilt ar .
FCUK! before you left, I reminded you and you say ok !
WTF is your fcuking problem .

wrong to trust you (again).

FCUK STUPID GIRLS!

2009-10-08T04:52:00.002+08:00

IDK what couples' ring for . Can anyone tell me?
Lols .
Thought it suppose to mean, you are belong to someone?
Lols, nvm . Forget it .

nice one .
suck it _l_

I don't care anymore, if thats what u say to others .
So it seems that, I am really nothing to you . LOLS!

FCUK 8th months anni la , thought we became sweet and loving again . I'm starting to dislike our relationship .

Who want go zouk out?!?!?!
Beach party= bikini babes :p

2009-10-06T04:57:00.003+08:00

I'm learning guitar recently , blister on my finger tips ):
But, its all worthwhile (: I wanna sing and play for my babygirl once i've mastered . Hahahs .
Mahjong recently too (: I didn't know Mahjong was that fun . Played overnight . tired ar ~ My luck not bad eh~
Pool-ed with Baby for the last few days . I've improved alot~ weeeets~

I want to:

Go explore the whole singapore with bi (many places)
Smoke lesser (no money T.T)
Drink lesser (my health not good)
Improve on guitar (will take long time -.-)
Work (support bi and my future car )
Club (fun)(someone don't allow -.-)
badminton, gym and diet! (I'm getting fatter!!!)

last but not least..
Last long with baby~

Time is passing faster and faster as each day goes by . I wonder why . Maybe we are getting more loving each day? Or am I the only one that felt this way . IDK? I need no one else but you . Hahahs . Thanks for the laughter nowadays(inside joke) I love the way we laugh together while cuddling each other on the bed last night (: and THANKS for the 8th month anni present too, Baby (: I loveeeeee it sososo much . Burberry perfume yeah? Heh . THANK YOU! Muacks .
How I wish happy moment will stay and the end will never come . How I wish I could stop the time and we'll stay forever this way .

wohenaimantou~

2009-09-27T04:19:00.001+08:00

speechless . "Enjoyable" and "memorable" birthday to me .

SUCK IT .
Worst b'dae ever , I SWEAR! KNN.

2009-09-22T05:40:00.002+08:00

Quarrelling with you, is just shortening my life !

My life is so so so SCREWED !
I'm a daft! cannot be help .

Hahaha . _l_

2009-09-22T05:31:00.003+08:00

Lols .
Has been going gym and badminton recently .
Having aches everywhere):
PAIN EVERYWHERE, OH MY TIAN AR!!
Tml chalet at downtown . (:
drink drink drink .
Wooots~

Whatever .
Sux la, everything just sux la .

I don't want birthday to come la .
Isn't it happier and better if people do not have birthday, so they won't know their age and they won't realise they are getting older and oler ):
God, I don't want to grow older ):

P.S:I don't know what to do anymore :/
Let me do what I want as I've let you do what you want.
Neither do you know what is trust all about :/

2009-09-17T03:04:00.004+08:00

don't blame them (:
Cause I didn't blame you, I'm lazy to care (:
Don't worry .
If you did nothing wrong, you won't be angry .
Don't worry, No one knows what you did . only god knows (:
So, if you think you hadn't let me down, just be it . ^^
I'll treat as nothing happen .
Listen and remember , thats all .
Till you tell me yourself one day .
No need to get so aggitated .
Wait for you to confess all, and not People to tell me (:

Not trying to pick a fight, relax...

2009-09-15T08:46:00.002+08:00

What is love?
Is there such thing as 爱一个人又带一点恨 .
Haha . wondering ~
I felt this~

这街上太拥挤
This street is too crowded

太多人有秘密
Too many people with secrets

玻璃上有雾气在被隐藏起过去
At the glass, there's the fog hidden from it

你脸上的情绪
The sulky face of yours

在还原那场雨
Is completing that rain

这巷弄太过弯曲走不回故事里
This street is simply too narrow to return to the story

这日子不再绿
These days are not green anymore

又斑驳了几句
Just a few word exchanges

剩下搬空回忆的我在大房子里
I'm left alone in the house, with half-filled memories

电影院的座椅
The seats in the cinema

隔遥远的距离
Are separated far by distance

感情没有对手戏你跟自己下棋
Feelings with no partner is a game of chess you played by yourself

还来不及仔仔细细写下你的关于
it's still too late to carefully write down your concern

描述我如何愛你
Describing how I love you

你却微笑的离我而去
Yet you leave me away with a smile

Chorus:

这感觉已经不对
This feeling is not right anymore

我努力在挽回
I tried hard to retrieve

一些些应该体贴的感觉我没给
A bit feeling of care that I didn't give

你嘟嘴许的愿望很卑微
The many wish from your lips is very petty and low

在妥协是我忽略
I neglected to compromise it

你不过要人陪
However you want some company

哦这感觉已经不对
ahh, This feeling is not right anymore

我最后才了解
I'm the last to understand

一页页不忍翻阅的情节
Looking through the pages of circumstances which cannot be endured

你好累
You're so tired

你默背为我掉过几次泪
You have silently cried behind my back for so many times

多憔悴
So shallow

而我心碎你受罪你的美
Yet my heart breaks and you accepted my sin, your beauty

我不配
I'm not worthy

Finally, I understand the whole song thanks to the translation?
Hmmmz . somehow I guess this song suit me?
Haha . crazy~

2009-09-15T04:04:00.003+08:00

nothing much today . slack slack slack .
I hope no one will fetch u home anymore, especially till ur doorstep .
No one know what happened .
You can pretend nothing happen when i ask u to tell me everything . o.O
I love gossiping nowadays . (:
More information, past that I don't know .
Don't worry, I won't bring any of it up.
I'll just listen and remember and smile (:
Many thing I'll just hear from people bahs .
Today heard one more thing . hahahahas .
oh ya. Might be going zouk on the 26th(:

从谎言开始的恋爱会幸福吗?

2009-09-13T06:40:00.000+08:00

Suppose to go bedok simpang but overslept . LOLS! okok la, predictable . Hmmz, woke up around 4+ and when off to meet Baby and co at 444 around 5+ . Sat there slacked and talk cock till 6 . Me, Baby and Khalid then headed to downtown , while the rest go their own ways . At ehub, walk walk walk, DARN IT! My slipper strap broke . The very kind and helpful Khalid went to buy supper glue while me and Baby slowly walk to mac . Eat, slack and smoke . After that, suggested to play pool and off we went . Played for 2hr+ . Went to arcade to find the rest(many people o.O) and played daytona as I very long didn't play arcade . Baby so hyper today ^^ around 12 plus, send her down to take cab . All of us went to cheers to get some things . Slacked at foodcourt outside and settle some problem . FCUK IT SIA!! Girls nowadays like to lie . _l_ settled everything and mac to get drinks, slack . Many pretty girls today (: Hahahahs . Home sweet Home around 5.30 . Bored~ and here I am blogging . My baby pang seh me again and went to her lalaland ): Later driving at 9 (: weeeeee~ LANCER EX, I'm coming again. Wahahahah!!!

Baby , I miss you .
Do treat me good and dun lie to me ok?
SUDDENLY, I felt lucky, you're unlike those other girls .
Hopefully I'm right about you ok? >.<

I love you sososo much <333333333
Nothing can be compared ^^

I MISS YOUR KISS AND YOUR HUG T.T
SIMPLY, YOUR EVERYTHING!!
I LOVE YOU, MY LOVE!!!

2009-09-09T05:13:00.002+08:00

Today is 090909 (: special date . And...
Happy 7th month anniversaries , BABY . I love you .

Today, slack slack slack . Wanted to go club with girlfriend and panda, but decided not to go in the end, cause tomorrow is me and baby's anni, don't want make her angry , and such a nice date la 090909 dun want to "spoil" this date . so, waited for Baby, drink again . There are justina, germain, nigel, edward, sixian and james . Lols . Yesterday, was abit tipsy and left Baby alone while I went to sleep . Something happened to her. Bi ar , so stupid, why didnt wake me up, could have saved you . HAHAHAHAHS . TSKTSK . Had a small lil tiff with baby just now, I shan't care anymore (: Glad that the both of us are happy with our own freedom, I'm gonna slowly get mine too >:( . nothing much to post le la . AH~ u back le . AHAHAHAHAHS .

I've got nothing to say .
I'll cherish you too, my darling .
<333333333 happy 7th months anniversaries .
I LOVE YOU.

2009-09-05T11:36:00.006+08:00

OMG!!! I think I fall in love again . Awwwww . She is damn hot la .
Nong Poy . A thai . She is sososo sexy, sososo hot, sososo pretty . <3

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2SREJOj5aU4&feature=fvst

Awwwww, so damn hot . BUT!!! BUT!!! BUT!!!!!
"She" was once a man !!! Oh my gosh! That's why I admire her/him .
I think I going outta mind!!
hmmz . transsexuals can also be superstar?!?!

HE IS A THAI BABE!!! WEET YOUUU WEET~~

Wah , most of those thai "ladyboys" damn hot sia . O.O
Why singapore don't have ):
I don't mind having a ah gua as my 2nd wife . HAHAHAHAHS!!!! <3

Those angmoh girls went under some surgery and insert Male's hormones
wondering are they bungs or boy sia ?!?!
Ninabei, totally look like guy sia!!! cool man!!!
They fcuking yandao sia .

I think I fall in love with the "transsexuals" . LOLs .
Imagine I really got a wife, and she tells me, "I was a boy in the past". #$%^#%#$ simi lj!! I sure heart-attack die wan lo .
Imagine I really got a husband, and he tells me, " I was a girl in the past" . I think I won't scold "him" , I will give one tight slap across "his" face and say "I last time also a bung, nabei!!" You think wad, PB ar?!?!?! "
LOLS . Scary sia . O.O

2009-09-05T08:20:00.007+08:00

nothing much to blog . went drinking with Babygirl, girlfriend and co at 444 . Lols . Hmmz . sianz . found one or two old pictures from my previous blog . LOLS . Later gonna play pool with baby . (: What I did was right(: no more thinking, no worries, no jealousy (: lastly, NO QUARREL!! hahahahs . *3cheers* Gonna win her again tmr . hehehes .

Freedom

2009-09-04T05:29:00.006+08:00

Will you love me like how you used to loved me ?
The answer is in your heart, answer yourself truthfully .
Be it good or bad, its still your answer (:
You can't lie to yourself .
Hope that we will enjoy our 7th months anni TOGETHER .
I am trying not to care so much already as I've reflected myself alot today (:
I guess I care for you too much .
I'm gonna give you back your freedom .
I've been sleeping and dreaming for these few months and its time for me to wake up!! Heees .
From today onwards, I'll allow you to do whatever you want, whatever you like and meet anyone. I won't and don't want to care anymore ^^ best choice ya? you happy, I also happy .
Just know your limit and try not to let me down . (:
My dear, I trust you .
In everything that you do, don't need tell or report to me anymore . I'm not interested in anything you do anymore , cause sometime is not really good to be curious as it might lead you to many misunderstandings and tiffs .
Only let me know once you've reach home or about to sleep . That's all . Its just a simple task ^^
Things will be easier for us and maybe better . Just a simple life will do, no more fantasy and fairy tales ending! Everything STOP! once and for all .
Damn sway this year, maybe its just the beginning ><"
I'm gonna let go abit (: Hope things won't get out of hand, even in future it really gets out of hand, its also my path of choice, blame no one . (:
I CAN DO IT! I'M CONFIDENT! So long didn't get my confidence back le . FINALLY!! ^^
Imma GOOD and UNDERSTANDING bung ! HOHOHOHO! o.<

My lovely Baby, I love you, do you ?
This time, show me . Actions speak louder than words.
This time, I didn't doubt your love cause I trust you . (:
please be more civilise abit and stop all the vulgarities, bad girl . You want me to spank you hard hard ar . ><"

2009-09-03T06:27:00.005+08:00

I don't feel good ):
Sososo unhappy . sososo angry . sososo sad .
You all, stupid boys shouldn't even have start the conversation .
But be it true or not, I don't wish to know .
Cause that was wad u heard from outsider , and not him .
Anyway,sould have even notice that in the past .
Never-mind . Thanks for telling me anyway -.-
Let the past be the the past . Tsk -.-
walauuuuuu~ ):
SHITHOLES . Make me can't get to sleep ):
Anyway, love u many many la qin ai de xiao fling . HAHAHAHAHS!!! and maverick-.-
I'll make you see my blog!! hahahah!!
You should feel honored ley!!! but u still make me feel sad today . ):

I'm like finally getting better, and yet,
haissssss.... yesterday was enough, today again-.-
better in time? I don't think so .
sure got pple make me tink back . TMD!!

Btw, somethings are untrue I guess?
They are jealous and want to make me angry with her, I suppose ?
Want to Tiao Bo Li Jian??
So lame . I only believe my dream . Lols .
okok . no more information of the past ok???!!!!
EVERYONE STOP YOUR NONSENSE CAN ?!?!
I'M TRYING VERY HARD TO GAIN MY TRUST IN HER !!!
EVERYTHING ENDS HERE, TODAY, RIGHT NOW , THIS MOMENT !!
STOP BEING OBSTICLES, CAN? ALL FAGGORTTTSSSSSSSS!!!!!
IRRITATING PESTS!!

Karma~ (: im waiting worzxz . Is this the best?

2009-09-02T07:00:00.005+08:00

Zhang Jin Xuan - Hurt so Bad

2009-09-02T02:12:00.004+08:00

Things are getting better for you cause I make an effort .
But what about me?
Understand me more can?
You love the past that much, you want go back ba .
I won't want to go back .
Did you really realise your mistake? I'm starting to doubt ):
I did nothing wrong this time . NOT AT ALL.

JOKE OF THE DAY! so sia sway. u didnt give me face.

Thanks* Yea . Imma clown . stupid, foolish, silly, heartbroken clown . LOLs .

2009-09-01T04:33:00.003+08:00

http://www.squidoo.com/regressionpastlife

I'm very interested . How I wish I know my past life . I want to know . I wonder were you in my past life too? lols . I know I think too much . But everything was such a coincidence . EVERYTHING!!

Do you.......
......recall memories of a past lifetime?
......have a loved one that constantly hurts you emotionally?
......have difficulty resolving issues with a friend, family member or with your child?
......in your mind's eye keep seeing yourself as a child dressed in clothing of another time era?
......have fears or phobias where you can't point to the causes?
......keep getting strange images of people and places in your dreams or while you are awake?
......have strong attachments to certain people, places and things?

You are not alone. You may have lived before.
Past Life Regression can help you to understand these experiences and allow you to resolve any issues that may be linked to them.

Walau . scary sia . o.O u all got happen before not . tmd . interesting sia .

Our own actions or causes that started in another lifetime comes back to us in this lifetime as an effect through the relationships that we form with friends, family members, loved ones and spouses. And these people may have lived in those previous lifetimes with us. Karma is the subject matter and regression is the modality by which we study it. Instead of taking many lifetimes to learn something we can learn it in this lifetime .

really meh?!?! like fun sia . If I have a choice, I would want to learn that skill and bring people back to the past too . At least they know what , why and how their karma came about this lifetime . If they did wrong thing past life, tell them to apologize and everything will turn out better .
COOL , man . Where to learn T.T

The term deja vu is French and means, literally, "already seen." Those who have experienced the feeling describe it as an overwhelming sense of familiarity with something that shouldn't be familiar at all. Say, for example, you are traveling to England for the first time. You are touring a cathedral, and suddenly it seems as if you have been in that very spot before. Or maybe you are having dinner with a group of friends, discussing some current political topic, and you have the feeling that you've already experienced this very thing -- same friends, same dinner, same topic.
As much as 70 percent of the population reports having experienced some form of deja vu. A higher number of incidents occurs in people 15 to 25 years old than in any other age group.
Several psychoanalysts attribute deja vu to simple fantasy or wish fulfillment, while some psychiatrists ascribe it to a mismatching in the brain that causes the brain to mistake the present for the past. Many parapsychologists believe it is related to a past-life experience.

Life is so interesting!!! HAHAHAHAHS .
But seriously I want learn la ):

Living in fear

2009-09-01T02:51:00.008+08:00

Hmmz . If you didn't ask me "u want to continue living in fear", I didn't even realise that at all . Want to go enjoy, but scared . Want to leave her with others, but scared she wont return to me again like the past . I trust no one . LOLS . I'm seriously living in FEAR , I should say? In the past, so confident, whatever I want to do, I do . Now I can't . I think alot . The more I trust, the more disappointments I'll get . I rather not to trust anyone, especially people who are the closest to me . LOLS . I envy you and your people nothing to think and just enjoy . (: Someone give me one tight slap please !! Wake me up .
I hate this feeling . I want to be like a normal guy/bung go around doing wadever they like . but..........

youguyswontknowwhatwillhappentoherorwhatshewilldotomeagain................
idontwishtoknowiwillrathernotgoanywhereandobedientlyandfaithfullystaybyherside
justsaymehumjiscaredheroriamherdogorwhateveridontmindcauseiagreeiamhumjionlyscaredofher
youguyswontunderstandmaybeiamachangedpersonandyouguysdidntexperiencethepainihadbefore...

You should feel happy that things won't be the same anymore and things are getting better and their are going your way because I learnt my lessons, I would rather give in and make you feel happier than Gameover . Don't worry about me as long as you are happy . I know I am hurting myself and keeping away my own freedom, but just to keep you by my side and exchange for a smile of yours, its all worthwhile . Because ILoveYou . So don't worry about the "never be the same again" because we are living in the present , not the past . Future? I don't want to know . let the past be with me and not you . I won't let things be the same again cause I gonna make it better . im sorry . Say whatever you like, scold more . Its not that I didn't notice , I did but I'm scared . seriously . Each day I fall deeper and deeper for you, my heart says"jialat, jit bai xi liao". How can I forgive and forget . But my heart tells me to . I don't want to quarrel . Do what you like, scold all you want . I won't scold you or lay a finger on you anymore . I'll just shut up and let you scold, beat or scream at . YES! I KNOW! I AGREE! I'M A COWARD! ONLY TOWARDS YOU!

2009-08-28T06:13:00.003+08:00

Today went to downtown then 418 . Played sudoku all the way till Baby come . Baby bought me a belt . Thanks bi! I love it alot alot . Scorpian buckle (: Andrew came down and we headed to central . Me and bi shared a big claypot of mee and cheese fries for the side dish . LOLS . Andrew like big boss lo! TMD! ask me to buy food, drink and cigg for him as he snatch my sudoku and was very into that game -.- After eat, my big big baby start to start her nonsence . Usually I was the one who make her laugh, but this time round, she really make me laugh my ass out!! LOLS!! she too , laugh like some siao zharbor . HAHAHAHs . send her take cab, Andrew and me quickly walked home cause its raining -.-

2009-08-26T00:37:00.002+08:00

Hmmmz . what else can I say?
I overheard the both of yours conversation .
To you all, were the both of us always at fault? And need the both of you to give in? Don't want to waste breath on us? So you both still think that way and think that the both of you got no fault ? Yes, I agree you both are on the same boat . What and who causes us to be like this ? Yes, to you all we are always the bad ones, the unreasonable ones . Did the both of you gave us time to heal ourselves? Don't you all know that the scar will be there for long? You both don't know . Yes, me and her and be brother and sister cause we are on the same boat too . Thanks for letting me know more and understand what the both of you are thinking . You both can do it once, so I don't think that there is no reason it can't be happen for the second time . Please let us gain back the trust and faith . Mistake? Please don't let the history repeat itself again . We are the failure, can't keep the both of you by ourside . Our bad . Sorry .

I'm sorry I can't protect you . Maybe overall, I'm still a girl (:

2009-08-25T05:12:00.001+08:00

Sometimes, I really wonder .. I think .. I know ..
Wasn't so simple . I'll keep trying .

2009-08-25T04:09:00.003+08:00

I very long never blog le,kinda lazy nowadays.Haha! Well,waited for baby at 418 today while slacking with the others.I was damn hungry just now cause andrew taking his own sweet time .Finally he came,off to 444 for dinner after that.That piao kia wanna challenge with me see who can eat more red chilli ley,never die before.Siaosiao,i now everyday eat chilli at home lor,haha!! Although i keep saying its nothing to me,but i feel so hot as in spicy just now ): I kept perspiring like i just came back from swimming ,baby bought tissue to wipe for me ^^ Went back home after that and baby followed me,she went back home at 1am and i send her out to take cab.

I love you baby<33

2009-08-22T19:59:00.003+08:00

I love you lao po da ren <333333333

2009-08-17T03:02:00.002+08:00

I drove again this morning . Hmmmz . Baby dua me, say will reached my house before 2 and guess wad . She reached around 5 -.- tsk, bluff me again . Lina cooked hum for us . Feed my big big baby eat many many hum (:
Went to downtown for pool . Hmmz . We bet and she lost . LOLS . But I not so bad la . HAHAHAs . Bi ar Bi . tsktsk .
Went up to my house . I did stupid stupid things just to see her laugh . For so long I didnt see you laugh so happily le (: So happy to hear your laughter again . Sent her to the main road to take cab .

I'm craving for CAKES!! yumyum . (: creamy creamy cream puffs too!!! (:
Especially chocolate EMI CAKES!! HAHAHAHS . Gonna get them tomorrow .
Though is fattening , but.. who cares?!?! HAHAHAHS!! :D

2009-08-15T15:38:00.002+08:00

Hmmmz . Just woke up and I dreamt about the past having great time with you .
I miss those days very much . Thouogh everyday we are doing nothing but I still enjoy with you around .
From morning I can see u till night, you went home .
Last time , they said samantha is a girl very hard to get . I told them YOU ALL SHALL JUST WAIT AND SEE. I'LL TOUCH HER HEART ONE DAY! hahhas . It came true . But at that point of time, I wasn't confident at all . I just know, I want to try my very best .
I remember me, you and reuben plan to meet at 7 . And we even bet who will late . In the end I was late . Hahah . Met you all at RC den headed to downtown to have mac for our breakfast . After that , went to Reuben's condo, he swim, you did some tanning while I use labby to play maple . After that, Zoey, zhiling, james, nigel , khalid, marcus, all came down to find us, we hungry again, eat mac again while I maple again and you help me to play . (:
Got one day, I remember, we were drinking at 444, u ask someone to act close to u, though i very 心酸 but I understand cause that period of time you were afraid of me . Andrew cried , as a rival, don't know why I consoled him and ask him don't give up . continue go for you, I'm alright . But I don't feel alright at all, I was putting up a fake mask, trynna act strong .
One night, we going Andrew's dont know whose chalet, you went so close to the someone . I was at the back looking at you, first time I feel so coward . Watching the both of you hugging and holding each other . I could only watch from the back . I was about to give up on you, when suddenly my senses tells me not .
I remember, that day I , zoey , zhiling and szekuan went to fetch you . Iwas about to let go and tring to find someone that can understand me more . From my house to zhiling house, only me and Zoey . So I tried treating her as my gf . Hmmz . ya, Tried . Went to find you, you gave me a black face, I was wondering why? HAHAHS . Then... I'm starting to suspect...... hehehehs .
Many things happened, your birthday, chalet, days we spent together at different places, many up and down . And we were finally together on 090209!!
I still remember where was I lo -.- . At Rayna's chalet gambling when I ask you to be mine (: Its like so long, you finally accept . I was like a monkey jumping all around in that chalet . So happy so so happy! many people congrats me . HAHAHAHS . So excited .
Although there are more bad memories than happy memories , but , this relationship is the best amoung all I had . Many obsticles but we manage to overcome (: there is still long long way to go . I will hold on to . Everything is new afresh again . (: I wont make the same mistake again . I miss you . Lastly, I love you , my baobei bunnie . (:

2009-08-15T04:17:00.000+08:00

I miss baby so much . I am so happy recently (:
Many happy moments with her . awwwwwww .

2009-08-10T04:17:00.000+08:00

i'm NUMBED!! HAHAHHAHAHHAS .

Slept at around 4 plus 5 and woke up at 8am for driving, not enough sleep . LOLS .
Went home to bathe and went to penisular to put 珺 . I consider very long, I put because I want to be her only one ,printed "it" on me .
After everything, bused down to bugis .
Its like already evening , went to couples lab to get our ring, though i spent all my money on that ring, but i think its worth it, cause wanted her to be my wife . I dont buy ring for nothing . stayed in the shop and consider for like 1hr? and decided to buy it .
After buying the ring, check the time, omg its like damn late le, gan jiong and search for her singlet as she wanted . walked around bugis street for like 2 hrs, mcm ah hai like that and finally found her singlet . grey in colour .
After that went to bugis juntion, walk like ah hai again for her card . our 6th anni card . wrote something .
Rush down to fareast just to fetch her .
After that we when to ws, den mac .
bought beer, celebrate philene b'dae .
Teared as many thing run through my mind .
Hahahas . got depession ar . bobian .
Tot she will come to me and hug me to comfort mi, hahas , lols . wrong prediction . was like ah hai seeing her walked away again . Cried till now Tot I deserve to be loved more by her . no . she told mi, she treat mi good, cause nowadays no time to accompany mi . Well, I dun nid this kind of good .
Hmmz. neh mind . i bear . i BEAR . HAHAHAHAHS!
I did so many thing, FOR NOTHING .
THANKS, no being sacrastic .
I'M really numb . no more tears, I drained it all out just now , wonder y i still teared uh? Tell u cause I bear from the start till now . And now? no more . I swear . Do wad ever u want, i did things to please u alot today, which something i didnt even get for my ex!
Weet~ do wadever u want . I'm numb, i wont want ur comfort in the futrue . no nid u take care mi and send mi sweet msges , i'd still live without those . Thanks . ^^

我的承诺 My Promises

2009-08-09T01:54:00.001+08:00

HAPPY 6th MONTH ANNIVERSARY, BABYGIRL!!
I love you more and more each day , although I still can't forget some things . You let me down times and times , I don't mind . Cause I won't give up . I'll stand when I fall . I'd rather the person who gets hurt is me and is not you (: I still can tahan .
I know that things wont be the same anymore, but its ok (: I'll still love you . And this time is even deeper .
I'm starting to understand you, care for you and treat you veh nice . (:
Despite of everything , I still want to love u and stable down with you . We'll be together as long as possible . Really very very long .
Don't treat me good cause you guilty, treat me good cause you love me more and more .
I love you more than anything else and I'm serious . It's true .

我不能没有你
因为我好爱你
你是我的一切
你是我的唯一
我要和你天长地久
一生一世
我在也不能失去你.

2009-08-07T19:07:00.000+08:00

recently, many things happened . i lost my phone, i went crazy .
One of the thing that change really scare me is, baby suddenly treat me so sweet .
I'm having fever . ): so xinku . I'm still under depression -.-
Lols .
Went to 444 to slack just now . slacked so long la, for afew hours .
Hmmz . thinking on the 9th baby cant take off jiu shag . not because cannot pei her see firework and bring her out, is because it is our 6th month anni .

to justina: Mei, enough? lols . i duno wat to write le . hahas

2009-08-03T13:22:00.000+08:00

BIG THANKS TO MR WEIHAN FOR HELPING ME MAKE BACK MY BLOG!!
HAHAHAHS . IMMA COMPUTER NOOB !
Bro thanks , i tot i can ownself make nice nice , in the end ar ji pa liang .
HAhahaha . scared mantou scold . i know i humji .
THANK YOU, THANK YOU VERY MUCH (:

MR WEIHAN SAVED FLABBIE'S LIFE -.-

2009-08-03T10:54:00.000+08:00

since when i didnt take good care of her , i care for her more den any one else do .
i dont know what to say . really .
when u are nice, u can be veh nice, when u are bad, u can be as evil as the devil .
I love her more den anyone of u all can imagin . want really stab u to death and slap u awake .
dont worry , she is my gf, and i'll take very good care of her .
I've learnt my lesson .
I trust NO ONE ELSE . (:
thanks for taking care of her when i'm not around .

u left me speechless . especially when everyone is helping u .

2009-08-03T01:51:00.001+08:00

to whoever , why are everyone helping you, when u are so bastard?

i think i need a chill pill .

2009-08-03T00:04:00.000+08:00

scar made by u (:
its worth it .
at least reminds me of this lesson (:

cant mention to the pain in my heart . HAHAs .
promises are really meant to be broken . (:

not even frens are trustable even they was once close to u .
imma big big fool (:

REGRETTED .

2009-07-31T06:36:00.000+08:00

Hmmz . Woke up early, heart to heart talk with mummy, dye my hair black, sing song, play com, smoke , smoke and smoke . Lols . Hmmmz , wasn't feeling well these few days . went to 418 and meet the rest . hmmmz. quite many people today (: talk to yonghui for the whole afternoon . Lols . At evening me and khalid went to meet bi and zoey , play pool , Bi lost!! our bet!! HAHAHAHAS . But I not so bad de la . HAHAHAS !! (inside joke) . after that, we went to Mac . eat, slacked , home to rest (: Weeeets~ after that send Baby go take cabby, went home and almost sleep . Hahaha . since Baby ask me dont sleep den i dont sleep lo . hmmmz . Bi ar, u very long never been so sweet leh . Was happy today (:

2009-07-31T02:49:00.000+08:00

Individuals diagnosed with DID demonstrate a variety of symptoms with wide fluctuations across time; functioning can vary from severe impairment in daily functioning to normal or high abilities. Symptoms can include:[1]

multiple mannerisms, attitudes and beliefs that are not similar to each other
headaches and other body pains
distortion or loss of subjective time
depersonalization
amnesia
depression
derealization
flashbacks of abuse/trauma
unexplainable phobias
sudden anger without a justified cause
lack of intimacy and personal connections
frequent panic/anxiety attacks
auditory hallucinations of the personalities inside their mind
Patients may experience an extremely broad array of other symptoms that resemble epilepsy, schizophrenia, anxiety disorders, mood disorders, post traumatic stress disorder, personality disorders, and eating disorders.[1]

Jialat . I think I got split personality . almost all symptoms I have le . walao . i am a bian tai!! 精神分裂症.
Siao liao....... I swear .

2009-07-29T23:09:00.000+08:00

Was at teddies . Talk . sort things out .
almost fainted . awwww . not drunk, really almost fainted .

sorry everything, to everybody including bi .
It really take many lies to cover just a lie .
And the worst thing was being kept in the dark .
Sorry everyone!!

Time to turn in .
wish i was dreaming but its real .
headache and fainting soon ):

Hope i wont get down with H1N1 ):

take care people, i'm seriously sorry for everything .
Forgive me if i did anything that makes anyone unhappy .

2009-07-29T13:55:00.000+08:00

Yes! i am who I am . dun regret in wadever u said and u've done .
I've think think think recently .
i'll return everything u want . i'll give u back .
DONT TAKE ME FOR GRANTED! OR U WILL REGRET!

THATS WHAT I SAY!!

2009-07-29T11:46:00.000+08:00

Baby:
Actually,i don't really care what happened or how you treat me.
Cause i can't go on without you,IDC what others say.
All i ever wanted was just being able to have you by my side.
You felt guilty for hurting me and all,i don't mind baby.
Violence?Nvm,we can violence everyday i don't mind.
You can't let go of me ,cause i haven't.And i never will.
You said before wanna bring me go manymany place.
I never take that as a promise cause you always tu me,
say that promises are meant to be broken.
But i really hope we can.You say let go and go,
but have you spare a thought for me,i really cannot.
I'm not gonna be like all your ex's,crying here and there.
Cause,i know you wouldn't like to see girls cry infront of you.
Few days before we broke up,it was still so happy.
You're like telling me you're loving me more & more.
I'm like telling you I'm loving you more & more.
Why,within less than an hour everything's gone,ended.
I really don't want things to end up like that bebe.
Why can't you give yourself a chance,and give me one more chance.
I know we broke up and patched up lots up time,but so???
Break already patch,means we still in love with each other and
patch cause we can't let go.Couples that don't quarrel are not couples.
You cannot leave me alone,you know i feel so lost without you with me??
You know anot be?hais.I know that day we both drank,and words that
came out from our mouth wasn't what we wanted to say but my temper sucks,
so does yours.And we both know.We can't quarrel in person,if not havoc already.
Not only quarrel using mouth,hands and legs will come out too.
旧的不去,新的不来. You want like that??nevermind.Forget about me and lets
get to know each other once again and i can be your new want.I don't mind.
These 3 days,we don't really contact.See each other is just like strangers to me.
Its really hurts me a lot.Why have we become like that i really don't understand.
But whatever,i will wait for you to come back to me.Cause you are the only one,
that can make me happy.Without you,what's the point?I don't know.
I really love you a lot.Idoubtyouknowthattoo.

Around of applase . seems like someone forgets everything
Bi, sometime i really hope u'll go through ur every post from the start wif me till now .
I wish u can change back to the past .
Now everything is in the opposite way .
You cannot be so heartless .
you are still my lil princess my lil angel .

2009-07-29T11:06:00.001+08:00

You! yes you! where ur man's pride ? stop being shameless and keep msging my gf . tyvn .
stop harassing our r/s can?
Get your own gf instead of wanting to steal or snatch from others . Get ur own !
Why lonely cause me and her lasted? Envy? also want that kind of r/s too? ownself find la .
why? waited so long for "her", but "she" duwan? good choice .
I lost to you once . once . remember only that one and only time .
I curse and swear!
Lols . I know u have been coming to see wad i might be posting and seeing how is me and her r/s . we quarrelled cause of u and u are happy . stop telling people wad bullshit such as "u are happy, i will be happy " wad cock nonesence? u cb kia , u think i happy? What u want me to do, den u will leave us alone , back to normal . give u money? find prettier girls for u? por ur lampa? (knn, also no lampa for me to por la, cb) like ah gua .
lols . my gf will be telling u, aiya, dun care phebe la, she is like that wan la .
SO?? I'm used to it . what a loser are you?
HAHAHAHAS!!! EVERYONE OF YOU, STOP ACTING!!!!
YES! I MEAN EVERYONE!!!

FCUK YOU, bladdy bastard! u know who are u , if u feel guity and shameless , mr nice guy (: lols.

u are the worst BROTHER i ever had . lols . regretted knowing you .

Bi, he is not any better den my ex right? LOLS .
you are tryyin to be the "old" me? try harder next time . (:

2009-07-29T06:27:00.003+08:00

Yes . I told u not to compare, and u are still doing it .
so? not i meet new people . as u said its new people . jiu de bu qu xin de bu lai .
and i cant always stay with the 418s . so nu think i dun hate them?
They knew that i hate him, but they still go find him . wtf .
don't everyone deserve a second chance?
i'm just telling u, i not giving up and i'm still holding on .
i know on msn, we will quarrel . though we are letting everyone to know our conversation, at least this is better, let pple to see how sincere i am .
u may think that i toking cock so i dun mind .
he be there for u , so?
dont tell mi. i have nvr be there for u . more than he does .
u want to compare . right. i'll compare everything with u .
go ask my ex . u were the best i've treated .
the one i'll always be there.
the longest one i'm holding on to .
i became weak because i finally understand whats love , when i know i'm too strong in the past . all give in to me and now i give in to u . though i'm still trying to .
but recently u took me for granted, wad can i say .
now u want to contact him, wad can i say, nothing right, u'll still contact in also keeping me in the dark . hahahs . so no point telling u about how i felt cause u wouldnt even give me another chance . hahas . and u expect people to give u another chance .
so state everything down wad u did for me .
did i say everything u are not good and anything?
when i say ur good things, u said, dun cock la bebe . if not is, oh pls no lo .
wad else u want mi to say . nothing i could say .
u dun like me contacting pple, i didnt . will it be fair if u contact people i duno ?
u said many pple think that u are a bitch, y u still treat me like that . i really dun understand y .
u wan compare we can compare many things .
just name it all out, and after i tell u everything, u will realise how much i love u .

2009-07-28T20:09:00.000+08:00

awww . cry lo . good for you (: u'll get ur karma .
lols .

Duno y today so happy.
kaven contacted mi, eh i not gay hor .
cause i know we have many misunderstanding (:
take care, get well soon and good luck (:

many pple ask me to get over u . i didnt
dont go back to u, i did
they say u will be in the lost for dont want me, lols, idc.
if they say u are a bitch, so? i know u are not .

Taoyan~ I still duno so many people care and will be there for me sia . HAHAHA!! awww .

2009-07-28T05:49:00.005+08:00

Seriously . Fcuk you , screw you. Because of you and your big fat mouth, me and mantou's relationship kanasai . CB . I meet my ex so? We are like friends wad, just friends not even to the extend till close friends ok . You are all along with us slacking , what the fcuk you told mantou . u will get your fcuking karma I swear . Being a mr nice guy? Lend her a shoulder? be there for her? If you can give her more happiness den i can give her, u go ahead . what can u give her? ( )<==3 <<--- this??(smart pple understand, i duno how to draw . hahaha.) anyway, I hate u . If you dare take her away, I swear upon all the Gods above, lim pei will drag u to hell hor . knn . Thiongxim ? thiong ki dua lan la . knn . wait for "her" so long, anything in the past i always help u, now want change target so fast . cb . I know u too well, I'll let u have her, if she wants to but, if you're gonna hurt her or just going for her body, I swear I'll fcuking give you hell! KI HONG KAN LA! KNNBPCB!! MOTHAFARKER!! CB KIA!! ka ni na bu chap buey siu dai long zong dou ah!!!!! hum gah can!! lim pei eh gao ka le gan ah, niao ka le pu, qi ling ka le du, hor gorilla tiong gan la!!

SORRY FOR ALL THE VALGURS AT THE TOP. VERY ANGRY. BOBIAN, THANKS FOR YOUR UNDERSTANDING (:

Dun nid change to a better person le, none appreciate eppecially the one and only girl i changed for .

why?dulan ar?
dun admit la .

CRY LA~ -.-

I just read the msg u send me which was like 4 hours ago? u said want to be alone so I post on blog . Hope u can see . I know these "things" are not over yet . yes , I told u to stop contacting him, u said OK . In the end, u still did . You said u didnt lie den what are all these? You like whosoever because he was there for u, den me? i everyday meet u how to be there for u when i'm already with you? that time ur mummy thing, wasn't me and zoey there for you? u forgot? i tried to make you laugh and cheer up . you really forgot all our memories? loyang sec thing, i wasn't there for u? u told mi it was a crush but why this crush seems to last so long T.T? Do whatever you like bahs . As long as you are happy .
Not i offline half way . my internet sot sot den while restarting com, I go smoke what . got wrong meh .
U did wad thing to please me? pls specify the whole detail down . Yes , I admit . I treat you good, cause I scared u leave me .why not you think other way round by putting urself in my shoes, if u were me, u will also do the same thing . I give in and given in, I've changed to a better person. I've changed my temper too, cause I know both our temper very well. I became patience as u can see this afternoon, cause I waited to long, so afew hours is already nothing to me . Why I do and change things, cause i duwan another break up nor quarrelling . You said I didn't console you when you are sad, well, did u console me? u know how it feels when i told u about the rumours i heard? but i didnt do it on purpose . cause i am really shock, nothing to say but to keep questioning you , i'm sorry . But I dont know why, I still trust whatever you say . But obviously, I hope sometimes words come out from ur mouth are not true like, contact whosoever,liking whosoever blah blah blah . I wish all bad news were things u are lying to me .
And kindly please stop comparing the past and the present . will that help to save our relationship by comparing? I hope u came back because u still love me and not other reasons .
I should be the one asking u, wad else u want from me so that I can keep you by my side and not straying away from me going with some DOGS out there . You tell me what should I do . I want nothing but you . What about u? What u want? I'll try my best .
If you see this post, you msg me and give me your reply alright?
Cheer up and dont think so much . You are my angel leh . hahas . 1st impression that counts! BABYILOVEYOUwithnoregrets.

2009-07-28T04:26:00.000+08:00

Hmmz . We had a tiff due to some mothafuckin' buey hiao bai guy who loves to contact my girlfriend .
Though my heart was shattered into pieces once again but I'll never give up .
I'm confident you'll realise what you are doing now is a wrong decision .
I'm strong . No more weakling -.-
I'll still give in and be happy no matter how hurt am I.
till my last breath, I'll still hold on .
To be a good "girlfriend" to you,
As long as you are happy, I'll be happy for you . (:
I MUST MANTAIN THE SMILE! (:

i'mma happy go lucky bung (:

never dies

2009-07-27T09:13:00.000+08:00

Happy go lucky . (:
Im gonna be the best for you (:
weet-you-weet~

In the past, to me, promises are meant to be broken.
But, today on, its meant to be kept .

ILOVEYOUBABY!

2009-07-23T05:09:00.002+08:00

Hmmms . Today is the 23th . 22nd had passed . Guess you still don't even have the heart . Guess you need more time . I understand . Its not easy to over come a person . Just tell me when you are ready bahs . (: Now you know why I hate promises? Hahaha .

2009-07-22T06:41:00.004+08:00

Quote

- 我知道 Wo Zhi Dao BY2 (i know)

從來沒想過

不能再和你牽手

委屈時候沒有你

陪著我心痛

一切都是我

太過驕縱

以為你會懂

一直忘了說

我有多感動

我知道你還是愛著我

雖然分開的理由

我們都已接受

你知道我會有多難過

所以即使到最後

還微笑著要我加油

我知道你還放不下我

才會在離開時

閉著眼沒有回頭

我們都知道彼此心中

其實這份愛沒停過

曾經完整幸福的夢

在腦海裡頭

我多希望你

還在我左右

我知道你還是愛著我

雖然分開的理由

我們都已接受

你知道我會有多難過

所以即使到最後

還微笑著要我加油

我知道你還放不下我

才會在離開時

閉著眼沒有回頭

答應你我會好好過

不讓這些眼淚白流

(:

2009-07-19T07:24:00.000+08:00

Sorry , I broke down again (:
Thanks for telling me .
Follow your heart . My prediction is true .
Nvm . (:
Just remember wad u promise

take care ,I LOVE YOU>

2009-07-18T05:13:00.004+08:00

To Philene:
I'm sorry to hit you just now . Truly sorry . But I really don't wish you to blurt out my feelings to Mantou . I don't want you to scold her . What she want to do to me, I accept the punishment . Karma . Last time I play girls, Now I finally know how they feel . So you don't blame Mantou . I deserve it . Don't scold her anymore . Want scold , scold me, I'm the one in fault , bringing me those troubles to myself . I know you want to help me very much . Thanks SISTER. I love you alot , I'll buy nice nice Elmo for you on your birthday . (:

To Baby:
What Philene say is true . I know nothing but cry . For the 3 days, I may seems to be happy outside but actually I'm crying inside . I lied to you again say I go walk walk alone but actually I went to meet Serene . But all she do was sit down quietly and see me cry . I swear . I'm not as strong as other bungs or guy . But My love to you is very strong . You ask me wait .Yes, I'll be waiting . I promise . And what I've said to you just now, do you remember? Or are you drunk and just playing along with me? If you can recall, all those things I said are true . Many memories . Too much for me to forget . Don't blame Philene for shouting at you OK? She is just trying to help me . She is young, she don't know anything about love life . Me and Philene will be waiting . I'll be waiting for you . Sorry to let you see me cry and make you heart pain again but I've been bearing it for very long already, I cannot take it anymore thats why I broke down . Wanted to tell you all those things for last 3 days in msn, but don't know how to tell you. I scared I'll spoil your mood and the chances of us getting back together will be lesser and lesser . I'm sorry . I love you . I still want to hug and kiss you . Will you? Promise me and I'll promise you . (:

To 418:
Thanks for being there for me when I need you guys . Sharing my joy together and sorrow together . Thanks for wiping my tears when I cried . Thanks for being there to listen to me nag when I felt stress . Thanks for making me laugh when I'm feeling sad . Thanks for being there for me whenever I need you guys . Thanks for entertaining me when I'm feeling bored . Thanks for consoling me when I feel lost . I LOVE YOU GUYS!! Big THANKS to the 418 . (: Our brothership will not be broken . (: THANKS!

I love Philene, Babygirl mantou and the 418s! and not forgetting my family la duh~ -.-

2009-07-17T04:22:00.003+08:00

Haaha . Why am I still crying and thinking ? I am so dumb . Whats done has done . I've tried many ways smile. Sorry to dissappoint you if I can't . another 5 more day to 22nd july . It's like dooms day. Hais . Hope that day don't come so soon(praying) .

Breathless.

If our love was a fairytale
I would charge in and rescue you
On a yacht baby we would sail
To an island where we'd say I do
And if we had babies they would look like you
It'd be so beautiful if that came true
You don't even know how very special you are

[Chorus]You leave me breathless
You're everything good in my life
You leave me breathless
I still can't believe that you're mine
You just walked out of one of my dreams
So beautiful you're leaving me
Breathless

And if our love was a story book
We would meet on the very first page
The last chapter would be about
How I'm thankful for the life we've made
And if we had babies they would have your eyes
I would fall deeper watching you give life
You don't even know how very special you are

[Chorus]
You leave me breathless
You're everything good in my life
You leave me breathless
I still can't believe that you're mine
You just walked out of one of my dreams
So beautiful you're leaving me
Breathless

You must have been sent from heaven to earth to change me
You're like an angel
The thing that I feel is stronger than love believe me
You're something special
I only hope that I'll one day deserve what you've given me
But all I can do is try
Every day of my life

No one is perfect.
To me, you are.
Don't say sorry. No more sorry .

奇迹会出现吗?
对不起.

2009-07-16T06:49:00.012+08:00

Okay . I don't know what else I can say .

Firstly , I am a very bad boyfriend who don't understand girlfriend well . I treat her very badly . I'm a failure . I don't dare to ask for her forgiveness . She is the first girl I really love and dote so much . She is the only one for me .

Our story started on 090209 . A date that I'll never forget . She taught me what is love .

She always gives in to me which I didn't notice till now . I'm the one who is usually first at fault but don't admit . Make her worry every night, make her afraid when I throw my temper , make her sad saying harsh things, broke ups, shouting , screaming and yelling at her . But all she does was keep quiet and tolerant . She broke down times and times again, countless times, but what I did was nothing .

All my promises to her are all bullshits, and I keep telling her that "promises are meant to be broken" , but she still hold on to my promises . That was what she always say "promise me and I'll promise you" . I finally understand that sentence , the true meaning, I really do . "I can't live without you", that's what she said when I suggest a break up with her and I used to think its all bullshits . But now, I got the same feeling too . I doubt she knows that . I control her by not letting her go modelling, eat slimming pills, go drinking with others etc etc .

I miss her, I really really really do . Though, when she was just right beside me just now, but I cant get close to her . Cant hug her , kiss her and hold her hands like we used to . So near yet so far . Many places we went, had already left many memories deeply printed there .

Went to downtown, I saw her image hoking my arms and walk , 444, image of her sitting beside me drinking, 418, image of her singing and laughing ,cuddling each other like a lovely couple . I feel very secured when she was around my arms . I really cannot do without her .

Though it was just a shortly 5 months, but it seems that we have known each other for don't know how many years . My closest girlfriend ever . I'm not happy at all now .

If things can start all over again, I'll be faithful to her . I'll be devoted to her . I'll not lie to her . I'll be true to her . I wont meet any of my ex- girlfriends . I'll listen to her . I'll say yes to her anything she wants . I'll not be as selfish-thinking as in the past . I'll drive her anywhere she wants to go . I'll be loyal to her . I'll cherish her . I'll treat her like a princess, a treasure . I'll protect her . I'll always be by her side . I'll not leave her anymore . Its all promises which meant to be kept .

And lastly, I'll love her for who she is .

Baby, I miss you . T.T

When will you come back to me?

Come back into my arms , will you?

Kiss me with your tender lips, will you?

Touch me will your silky fingers , will you?

Catch my tears when I cry, will you?

Comfort me when I'm sad, will you?

Laugh with me when I'll happy , will you?

Calm me down when I'm angry, will you?

Give me many many advice , will you?

Sing songs for me, will you?

Teach me Cantonese, will you?

Cuddle me closely and tightly to your body , will you?

Poke my belly button, will you?

Watch TV with me, will you?

Say stories to entertain me, will you?

Paint my nails for me , will you?

Play with my piercings, will you?

Eat with me, will you?

See me cook for you, will you?

Look into my eyes with your beautiful eyes, will you?

Take lots of pictures with me, will you?

Disturb me when I'm sleeping, will you?

See me sleep, will you?

Web cam with me will you?

Pluck my fizzy hair one by one for me, will you?

Meet me at 418 , will you?

Go shopping with me to bugis , will you?

Listen to my naggings, will you?

Wait for my car licence with me , will you?

Go to zoo and many places with me, will you?

Beat me, scold me, scream at me when I'm wrong, will you?

See me dance while you video down ,will you?

Seasha together with me, will you?

Go to the beach for a walk, will you?

Plan our future with me, will you?

Celebrate happy occasion with me, will you?

Let me surprise you with our anniversary gifts, will you?

Accompany me always, will you?

Let me dote you, will you?

Let me love you, will you?

Don't leave me, can you?

Love me ,will you?

I'm sincerely sorry for all these months how I've been treated you .

Maybe sorry can't mend your heart back to piece and come back to me,

But I want to let you know,

Without you with me, I'm not moving on.

I've regretted for what I've done in the past .

I neglected you too much . I left you far behind . Its my fault .

Maybe you see this blog, you wont be touched, won't return back to me, thinking that it is another piece of sweet talking- compo,

But I just want to let you know something .

Knowing you is the happiest thing in my life .

I've never regretted knowing you .

I'm already the happiest bung on earth .

I love you much much .

Baby T.T

Your Bebe is still waiting .T.T

Please, I beg you, faster come back , My Dear . T.T

I want you back, because I need you. You are special . You'll never be replace .

I love bunnie.

2009-07-15T05:57:00.003+08:00

A million needles and pins piercing through my heart . Hahaha .
Biggest fool on earth .
I'll wait for that day . (:
I'll work hard .
I've got no choice but to leave .
I'm sorry .
I'll be back (:

2009-07-14T07:09:00.002+08:00

Woke up, bathe, meet Khalid, when to cousin house and move off. cousin de bf bring me to 100+ which is near darrel house and zoey house there to wait for his fren . On the way there, he ask me i know this person , thst person, Yes i know . Dunno wad they say to my cousin de bf lo . -.- can waiting for their fren, he ask mi know who his fren , i said duno . but in the end, i realise its someone i have piang before de . walao eh . sway sia . den they go eat . after that go to a pub . Thinking of the past , I drink drink drink . Martel sia . didnt mix lo . abit tipsy . Last min, went to club Nana . fuck!! There is a prositude trying to be touchy with me . But thinking of MAntou, I tried to control myself . I tried to control myself , but however, I felt that its stupid . since mantou dont care so much, y did i care too???? hahhaha . stupid me . should have just fuck it!! hHHhHhHAHHAHHAHAHHAHAHA .anyway was high there . hahah .

2009-07-10T06:17:00.002+08:00

Today is me and baby's 5th monthsary,so i met her at 418 and brought her to e hub to eat (:
Don't feel like eating at first but when i saw baby's stern face,i suddenly changed my mine.HAHA!! I ate terriyaki chicken and she ate salmon (: The food there taste not bad.After eating,smoke break and went to fair price buy beer.Baby bought her biore pore pack thingy,went to my house and we did it together.I paste till out of place but baby's one is so perfect.Cause she always do it at home la O: Watched vcd and baby went to take cab home.Wanted to go 444 but was lazy .Meeting reuben later on and gonna accompany baby to her grandma's place (:

I love you manymany,deepdeep <3

Happy 5th month Anniversary, LAOPO!! ^^

2009-07-09T02:45:00.007+08:00

Today ,rot at home the whole day . Baby came up to my house . Planned to go down and find the rest but we didn't ,cause we watched tv till quite late . Hahaha . Baby kept on complaining that she's hungry la -.- SO... I ransacked the whole fridge to see what I can cook for her . Hahahah!!!!! Let's see what I've digged out... hmmz.. There are prawns, hotdogs, fishballs, garlic, tomatoes, tomato sauce and chilli sauce . Decided to cook tomato prawn for her, my first attempt to cook . Although it taste not as delicious as how my dad cook, but my skills are not bad, EDIBLE lo . Ask her nice a not . Baby, if it's not nice cannot blame me okay -.- Cause Papa taught me how to cook it by telling me and not demonstrating it . So its considered a pass for first timer . Hahahhaha . When I said," Baby, this is our 5th month anni present from me to you", her face change lo =.= Promised her to cook better things tomorrow . Awww. See the way she eat so cute and especially when her cute little tummy popping out . HAHAHAH!! After eating, seems like she was very satisfied, so we use the computer awhile and then watch tv again . Though we were staying at home all the way, but I do enjoy it a lot a lot . Sent her to take cab at 418 and meet ridhwan . Went to 444 drink again . Have been drinking since last year end . Gosh~ my beer belly is so so so big la . Drank 2 bottles but not even tipsy(which I don't know why) . I guess its because I'm in a good mood bahs . Didn't even quarrel with Baby today . Happy happy(: Slacked awhile and went home (:

Baby, Happy 5th month anniversary!
I just want to let you know :
No matter what happen:

I'll not give up so easily .
I'll hold you up if you fall.
I'll be there for you when you need me.
I'll lend you my shoulder to lean on.
I'll listen to you.
I'll share your happiness and your sorrows with you.
I'll hold on to you and make you stay by my side.
I'll help you fulfil you wishes.
I'll be your wonderful and special person .

So fast 5months has passed with so many happy and sad moments .
Waiting for more and more anniversaries coming up with you .
I believe that there is forever, the eternity, when you exist .
Lastly, I love you much much .
Want to be your only lady (:
woainihenduohenduo . MWACKS!

HAPPY 5TH MONTHS ANNIVERSARY , SAMANTHA ONG JUN!!

HAHAHAHAHAHHAHA!!

2009-07-08T05:39:00.003+08:00

Woke up at 6? Went down to 418 to meet the same people . Slacked slacked slacked, went to buy drinks and stuffs . Drunk and high~ Once I'm concious, I saw Baby keep crying, tried to stop her for crying . I forgot what happened totally . And yes! I meant TOTALLY!! She told me I want to die and stuff . Lols . Sad love life ar? I'm strong .
Adam talked to me and I dont know why, I felt very sad . It dont seems like a dream do you know that, Adam? Is like so real . 3 people dreamt the same dream, how do you explain that . But, I trust my gf . Sorry to attitude you. Honestly, somehow, I still do feel pissed off!
Baby, I'm sorry for everything . I didnt regret . Having you by my side is my fortune . Sorry for making you cry, which I dont know why -.-
Everyone have to die someday no matter what . Die early, die later at the old stage, in the end still have to die . Why not spend your everyday happily and leave the earth with no regrets .
Hmmms , somehow, I think I need to see a phycologist . I've been keep thinking that I'm gonna die soon . And sometimes I've keep thinking, while looking out of the window, up the sky, how wonderful is it up there . Awwww~ I've been thinking of committing suicide recently too . But, I don't have the courage . And ya, I'm afraid of heights and pain, phobia. So now, all I can wish , was to die peacefully in my dream . But before I end everything, I got to fufil my wish and I guess it'll have to take some years . This is what we call "think too much" . Think until can go crazy . I wish they put me into IMH so I can talk to those people who "think too much" till they go crazy too . I guess, I'm gonna be one of them . Maybe, they understand me? Hahaha . Life is so interesting, incredible and unpredictable la . Somehow, I think I'm someone very special in my past life . Let me just live another 5 years will do .
I'm going to have car pratical this coming Sunday and maybe I'm going to city harvest . So excited la . So long didnt go church le . Happy happy! [:
Tml will be our 5th month anni . Will it be a happy anni? I hope so . I wish I'm a robot like the jue shi nan you . Just to become Samantha Ng Jun's ideal boyfriend . [:

2009-07-06T07:32:00.002+08:00

Yea . Maybe we should take a break (:
Reflect . Do you feel lonely when i ignore u? hmmmz .
Hahas . 9th Aug 09 . still counting on . Maybe we can take a long long break after that? i'm waiting .

2009-07-04T03:28:00.003+08:00

So sad . You can't even be my listening ear . Let me vent anger will die meh . -.- Will you lose a piece of flesh? You went to meet someone I also didn't say anything . You leh ? -.-
People do change . Unreasonable and not understanding is the two best examples .
Anyway, was feeling very down today . Dont wish to say much . Woke up, bathe, meet reuben and co at 418 . slack . Drink, drank , drunk? i suppose? hmmmz . I don't know . hungry, home .
Do what ever you want . continue ):

I'm feeling lonely . I'm all alone . I'll be fine .
who can let me vent anger on?
Be my listening ear.......

My life is so screwed . FCUK IT .
No one understands me .

2009-07-01T06:18:00.002+08:00

I miss my BABY!!! BABY!! I WANT BAOBAO!!

2009-06-29T07:34:00.002+08:00

I know ,hehe!
I heart you manymany(:

2009-06-29T04:42:00.002+08:00

Hmmz . Sometime, I do feel that I am a good boyfriend . I sorry for letting you down at times, making you sad, angry, worry and cry at times , but no matter what, believe it or not, you'll still be my one and only love . I'll prove to others that we'll last long long and I'll treat you very very nice . Make sure everyone will be jealous . Hahaha . After that day we quarrelled from downtown to 418, I realise what you did to me was how I did to you in the past and I know what i did was wrong, very wrong! I was bad to you in the past , but from today onwards, I'll change . You just wait and see . Work work work(u know la!) Who cares man! Money ma, give you , you dont want meh . I want to bring many many money out with you on that day . AND I WILL!! We'll go shopping , eat many many nice nice food, take many many photos , do whatever we want to do, buy whatever we want to buy, use up all my money, watch fireworks and lastly drink drink and drink!! wahahahha!! And I wont touch that bloody thing anymore . I swear . Wei le ni, wo yuan yi gai . Other people can look down on me, but not you . I'll try my best and give you the best what ever you want and I'll give in more, I promise . I want you to be my taitai . Do nothing but enjoy . Baby , dont leave me again . I'll go crazy , I mean it!! Remember what you used to say?? Promise me and I'll promise you . (:
SAMANTHA BABY, I LOVE YOU!(I not just say say you know anot????) HEES .

2009-06-17T06:08:00.004+08:00

Me and nuer XD

wenhui's chalet

Happy Birthday to wenhui !!

all 418!! dont jealous .

camera upstairs la!!

I'm here to update again .
Went to meet Nana , Reuben, Khalid and Nana's friend yesterday around 10am . Early right ? Walao eh . So sleepy la can . On the way to bustop when we at haising pathway, saw the girl smiling, I thought which auntie sia . Hahahaha . Reuben say" Eh? That one is pearlyn ar? why so sum sui? wear until like that ." I was like at there laughing non-stop la . HAHAHA.
Sat at the bustop while waiting for her friend, She asked me ," Eh, I ask you ar, why you never update your blog want, I got stalk you de sia". So lame can? After she said finish, she laughed to herself, like very funny like that, all the way, Me, Reuben and Khalid gave her the =.= face.
Finally, her friend arrived . ><" We went to Reuben's condo as Nana and her friend want use gym ><" She say cause I say her fat . Hahaha . After those two girls gymed for like less then an hour(dont know gym for what-.-), we headed to downtown to eat .
Pearlyn ar Pearlyn, EAT SOMEMORE!
They wanted to go downtown to swim, but in the end they said, "aiy0, so hot la, evening then come back swim la, We going meet our friend at Tamp" .
Lazy Mummy I have =.=. Hahaha . In the end they didnt even call back la . =.= Met Joseph, he treat me beer and I took his cigg like free. HAhahaha . Was abit tipsy, after slacking, went to Khalid house for seasha, Baby came up after that . woots~ until night .
Went down and slacked awhile, tired, went home , sleep . until now then wake up . Haha .
Maybe later meeting Nana again . That fat mummy of mine . awwwww. so kawaii ~ hahahha . :P (if you happen to see my blog dont scold me ar . hahahah )

I miss Baby alotalot . ):
I LOVE YOU .

2009-06-12T06:49:00.003+08:00

Is like finally you had let something out from your heart . Why keep it to yourself? Anyway, my heart doesn't feels good now . ): You've let me know that I haven't been treating you good all these while . Thanks for letting me know . HAHA . *laughing at my stupidness* Thanks . I can't explain this feeling thats in my heart . I thought I'll be a good boyfriend . Oh well . . . . I'm a failure . HAHAHAHA!!! (stupid me)

谁能告诉我,
怎么我的心感觉痛痛的.
我真蠢. 哈哈哈.

2009-06-08T06:23:00.005+08:00

After me and Baby are back together, life seems to be much more interesting . Haha . I just came back from chalet . Was too busy gambling that I forgot to msg Baby . She seems to be damn sad . Baby ar Baby , sorry la~ I'm too into gambling le, you cannot blame me . Hehehe . Anyway, you dun worry , I at outside never anyhow anyhow . Heh . Thanks for coming back to me even though I treated you so bad . I swear I won't do it anymore . Nothing is more hurtful than not having you by my side . I'm sorry . So happy to see your smile , to kiss you , to baobao you and spend time with you again . I'll be a good boyfriend I promise . I won't let you down anymore and I'll not leave you again . I'll try to understand you well . Tml is our 4th months anni , time pass really fast . I'm sure we can last long long de . We'll show everyone that we can last . Hees (: And lastly, BABY I LOVE YOU MANY MANY, DEEP DEEP , MUACKS ! :P

我感谢上帝, 让你回到我身边.

BABYGIRL T.T

2009-06-02T06:13:00.004+08:00

Went to seashell park nowadays . Hmmmz . I don't know what I really want . Life w/o Sam is damn bored , so dead . Hais . Was quite shocked when she came to me but wasn't really happy as she call me Phebe . 不.习惯 . But nvm . Sooner or later also must xi guan . Yepps . Tried to be cold to Sam and thought it would be easier to let go of her but the fact is not . DAMN! Many people keep asking me many many stupid questions . Please people, stop asking . ><" You guys won't understand . Yepps . Everything is my fault I know . -.- Then? Whats done has done . I'm trying my very best to 拿得起,放得下 . Give me time . Time heals everything bah . Everything also have to 慢慢来. 旧的不去,新的不来(forgot which idiot told me that)

Imissyoualot,Idoubtyouknowthat
Ihaverealisemymistake
Ihaveregretted
Icantlivewithoutyou
ButIguessIgottoletgoofyou
Icantbesoselfish,
Thankslove.